Collision de Passion

Rebeginning

2008-11-28T17:48:00.000-08:00

This blog has moved!

Click here to go to aileenchew.wordpress.com

I'm going pro. About time too, it's been 5 years of amateur blogging. So whats different?

* It's more organised, everything will be categorised, and beautifully simple to find!

* My comments about the things I come across. To be encompassing Events, Thoughts, Movies, Books, Fashion, Toys, IT... well, basically anything I feel like commenting about, critic-style.

And so it ends...

2008-11-27T02:13:00.001-08:00

Well, its the last day for me. All the best for those still fighting.

Things you didn't know about SPM. (for us, anyway)

* The head invigilator is a Physics teacher. Those in room 1 suffered from his scrutiny.

* The head invigilator is a nice guy!

* The papers are sealed in a ton of plastic bags. (Red this year!)

* Some invigilators write down the time remaining on the white board, and start counting down. Very scary, that one.

* Others turn the clock to make make it seem like we started on time.

* Another kind will chat you up, even when you're in the middle of a paper!

* Art theory papers are classified, and cannot be brought out of the room.

* The aforesaid papers are also SPECIAL. Made of glossy material, the kind you'd get in an expensive reference book. Fancylicious.

* Practical art exams are very laid back (and by that I don't mean the panic at the time constraint). The invigilators walked around, looked at each of the 6 of us in turn appraisingly, and some even struck up a conversation!

My invigilator in pink came around and asked me if there was a librarian named Kathrine (Katrina) in Form 5, because her cousin in MBS asked o.O

and so it ends...

no, seriously.

2008-11-06T03:02:00.000-08:00

Attention all dearest friends of mine...

I need ONE personor more to come to the 11th Kiwanis Youth Camp with me...

so i can go.

http://www.kckl.org.my/article.cfm?id=246

Pretty pretty pretty please? =(

No way

2008-10-24T00:39:00.000-07:00

I don't know about the rest, but I'll never get used to being known. Not famous, - I refuse to think of it that way - just, known by the lower forms. Some whom I haven't or never will, have the pleasure of knowing. Perhaps fame doesn't agree much with me. Part of me feels glad to be known, but the other part feels awkward and clumsy. I'm nearly out of school and it still never fails to shock me. The kind of surprise that makes you blink a couple of times, thinking, 'huh?'
And indeed with all daily musings, something happened that triggered it.

As I finally emerged into the sunlight at the school gate, a junior confided in me, 'Aileen, I can't believe I'm not in...' while successfully holding me prisoner by the sleeve.

'In what?'

'I wasn't shortlisted for the UBS interview!' I promised her I'd get her in, she was such an enthusiastic thing. Plus, I sort of asked her to join, so there were clouds on either side of the plain.

As we walked out, a retardo malay girl showed her IC at us and made a funny face. Neither of us knew her. So when two her friends gasped, pointed, and beckoned her, I didn't know what to make of it. My first thought was, 'more retards'.

'You know them?' I asked.

'Yeah, they're my friends. Hehe, they're excited.'

'About what?'

'Seeing the UBS dude. Um, dudette, you know.' If she wasn't eyeing me very obviously, I would have gone, 'huh'?

And yes, I did blink a few times. I'm sorry for being such a slow thing sometimes.

Which to bury, us or the hatchet?

2008-10-20T23:36:00.001-07:00

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget

and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you

and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happenedand one day we'll see this come around)

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...

Relient K

Half-a-foot out the door

2008-10-19T18:50:00.002-07:00

Half-a-foot out the door,

we're almost out of high school.

Aww man, are we leaving already? No fair, I haven't climbed through windows yet XD

musings...

Famous

Have I...

Won medals? Check

Made time for friends? Check

Studied hard? Um, half-check

Played hard? Check

Been kind to juniors? well, mostly lah.

Played in a band? Check

Done drama? Check

Held high posts? Check

Become somebody? Checkcheckcheck =D

Infamous

Have I?

Skipped class? Check

Gotten a BSL? Check

Skipped school? Check

Brought illegal items? Check

Played a prank on anyone? Check

Been on the roof? Check

The flamingo wears pink XD

With Awi

With Chang and Kuan Yee

Thank ye' Interact Club for ze flower. My rose tis bootiful...

coz Hakim picks nice roses for pretty girls. Compared to Chang's... sad one. XD

5 Sc Beta, with some animals from another zoo.

11 years babeh! xoxo

The birdwatcher tak pandai ambik gambar! Haha, Happy Happy Happy Belated-est Birthday YVonne!

You deserve binoculars yo!

I'm only a girl, after all

2008-10-17T01:32:00.000-07:00

I'm graduating from high school tomorrow and I.don't.know.what.to.wear.!

Why have Hui Ning and I switched roles? I'm usually the calm one, its the like movie Freaky Friday I tell you.

Whatwhatwhat...........?

And Yee Vonne, Ms Belated Birthday girl, you are SO coming to Pavilion to celebrate YOUR birthday, and GeniusBash can WAIT. okie dokie? Oh, and your presents not done yet. Come to school on Monday =D

What to wear what to wear what to wear...?

One-eyebrow thick! EyePod razr??

KCKL 33rd Installation Dinner

2008-09-22T02:15:00.000-07:00

Calling all Key Leader graduates,

You are invited to the Kiwanis Club of Kuala Lumpur's (KCKL) 33rd Installation this Sunday. Not sure who's going, but I'm sure plenty of us will be there. I'm under lockdown right now (Graduation doesn't count btw) so I'm sorry I can't make it. But I will see the sexylicious in december. Wait for me honeys. xoxo XD

FYI, Uncle KH is the new President of KCKL! And H.O.T - you know, Heidi Olivia Tan, our Lead Faci, is the new Vice-President of KCKL. Congratulations to both of you wonderful, spontaneous, inspiring adults. (Fine, young people)

Where? : Kelab Rahman Putra, Sungai Buloh
When? : 27th September 2008 (this Saturday!)
$$? : RM 50 per pax (You didn't think you'd get free dinner, did you?)

For more info, visit the KCKL website here : http://www.kckl.org.my/article.cfm?id=234 . Alternatively, the KCKL home page is also accessible through this blog, look to your right.

Remember, it's this Saturday!! And Uncle KH would like you guys to confirm with him soonest. Or the Kiwanian on the site. But let's just confirm with Uncle KH, kan? Haha. If you need his email or number, leave a tag, comment, or email me (because it's dangerous and immoral to give out people's emails in public), and I will surely hand it to you. :)

My handphone wallpaper, courtesy of Yee Vonne.

They are such guilt-inducing things, especially when it stares at you in the face. Gaah, I need that.

There's Been Death In The Opposite House

2008-09-19T21:39:00.000-07:00

There’s been death in the opposite house
Though really a few blocks away
Normal silence becomes uncanny
There was no gathering
Nothing gregarious-like

The women of the house didn’t howl
Or beat their brows
Nor pull their hair
Though perhaps the youngest
Resisted a little

There’s been death in the opposite house
Though really a few blocks away
I heard the man died this morning
With cotton stuffing in his nostrils
Did he look like he sleeping?

Yes, they say. He did.
Almost.

Mr Neighbour, Uncle Joseph leaves behind a wife and daughter. Goodbye, Rest In Peace. My dad misses you :(

Flaccidity

2008-09-13T06:03:00.000-07:00

Andy : Shaking my butt makes me fart.
Yours truly : speechless. And folks, that doesn’t happen very often.

People grow weirder when their major exam looms by. Well the aforesaid was always a little queer now and then, but you know what I mean.

MSN is officially pissing me off now. It has refused all my sign in efforts to date. And, while this is not new, I hate my flaccid dial-up connection. Flaccid. It’s my new favourite word now. Because I feel flaccid. As flaccid as my internet connection.

So dearest equally-weird-people-who-actually-do-read-my-blog, I can only be contacted through email, it’s the one thing that doesn’t fail me. And reading the cycling thing. What have I been reduced to? Aarghh

I was kidding, honest!

Voices and Bikes

2008-09-10T04:10:00.001-07:00

AILEEN
Hey Andy, I’m hearing the voices of my subjects in my head. They’re saying
‘Aileen, please study me!’‘No, Aileen, you haven’t studied me!’‘Aileen, you’re only half done with me!’
And in squeaky voices too!

ANDY
(pause)
You know what, I hear the same thing. Only at the end, there’s a ‘Sleep... Eat.... And sleep some more...’

Oh the mental toll of major exams!

Note : Another addition to the Bonne Substance section, this dude that I met at Relay for Life this year actually came home to Malaysia from the US - on a bike! A fresh grad, unemployed, no girlfriend, and no responsibilities, Law Tzuo Hann did what most of us can (and still am) only dream about. He got on a bike and cycled home.

More personal note : He's also writing a book on his travels (how awesome is that?). And personally, I think that guy just had some damn [insert elaborate swear word here] good luck along the way. Most of the time :)

Caution : This blogger shall not be responsible for adult content on the site. Keep out of reach of children! Haha

10 Signs that Aileen is Stressed

2008-09-06T04:05:00.000-07:00

1. Mood swings
2. Becomes snappy (more than usual la)
3. Looks at tv like a piece of crow poo
4. Eats more
5. Becomes fatter
6. Breaks out in stress acne
7. Looks pale (moms fav)
8. Losses hair. A lot.
9. Gets ulsers.
10. Looks forward to bugging people to relieve tension. mwahahahaha
11. [additional] Blogs about redundant subject about herself.

I'm going to start calling people. Oh no, but everybody's studying too. bugger.

Win a Chance to Showcase Your 8 Millenium Goals @ the 2008 Global Youth Forum in Armenia!!

2008-08-24T04:23:00.000-07:00

The Malaysian Chapter is open to all Malaysian youths aged 18 - 25 years (individual or two members per team), who would have to select one or incorporate all of the eight United Nations Millennium Development Goals in a written document, a 3 - 5 minute video, or an active electronic presentation demonstrating their strategies, plans and solutions in addressing and achieving these goals.

The Eight UN Millennium Development Goals are:
1. Eradicate extreme poverty and hunger

2. Achieve universal primary education

3. Promote gender equality and empower women

4. Reduce child mortality

5. Improve maternal health

6. Combat HIV / AIDS, malaria and other diseases

7. Ensure environmental sustainability

8. Develop a global partnership for development

For more information, visit http://www.astro.com.my/themalaysianchapter or refer to the Bonne Substance section on the sidebar.

Unfortunately, the rules state that all participants have to be aged between 18 and 25 years old, which I'm not. But I know plenty of you who are! =)

Precognition

2008-08-20T23:21:00.000-07:00

It appears that my body will only go through so much abuse until slightly past 4 am. After I was sure the painful parts were over, - I've done 500 plus out of the 700 plus pages bu then - I settled the book down and lay looking at the ceiling, at the light. Now that I recall I vaguely remember the room seeming to spin on the horizontal plane, like a boat out in the ocean - I'm thinking of Billy Joel's Goodnight My Angel. haha. Then I was out.

Someone must have turned out the light while I was out cold, because I was totally out. And I woke at 9.

I cannot begin to convey how incredibly strange I become when I do dive into a good book. I would laugh out loud, or giggle, my eyes would occasionally widen in horror and I'd gasp, with my mouth forming a soft 'o'. But most terrifying, was that if the emotions were just right, I'd cry. With Breaking Dawn, I would tear up just a bit, and that was normal. New Moon was scary.

But now it's even stranger, because I didn't feel anything. Just a minute ago Ken IMed me, elated that he was to be flying off to the US. Deep deep down somewhere, I knew I should be happy for him, and I was. I just didn't feel enough of it. Like someone had just pulled a plug on my emotions, draining me. Somehow I know this calm cannot last, not for me. It was disturbing, abnormal even, for me to not show some sort of emotion. As it is, I am a passionate person by nature.

I feel like I'm sitting lotus-style on a sharp precipice which promised a hard fall either way. On my left would be immense hurt, pain and suffering. Mentally, I would probably suffer. On my right was immense joy and elation. Insanity.

It doesn't make sense now, but I know I'm anticipating something.

It would not be very pretty.

I know it's long overdue,

2008-08-19T18:59:00.000-07:00

And parrots speak without thinking.

Happy 17th Birthday, to the biggest parrot in the whole wide world, dated 13th August.

Amirah binti Mohammad Hedar.

It’s been 10 years! Still have that picture of your 7th birthday, the one with you, Vi-Jean and I on the bench at your place (the bench is still there kan XD). Man, I hate that picture. And the frock.

Oh mY

2008-08-10T23:03:00.000-07:00

I am blogging from school during (can you guess?)

Cik Fadzelah's period. I'm so glad you didn't leave for Sabah to get married. I'm selfish that way.

I DIDN'T GET NS!!!!!! Mwahahahahaaaaaaaa

Oh, and she (teacher) has locked the computer room door for fear of the invasion of the NS-checking crowd. Woohoo.

But if I don't upload something on my Yahoo! Group file, I'll be stuck in here forever,

So, cheerio comrades! :)

No Food Day

2008-08-08T08:29:00.001-07:00

I don’t know what stressed me out first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head

Papercut, Linkin Park

I didn’t know how incredibly tired I was until you accidently set me off, and I’m sorry I reacted that way; I was tired. And I didn’t even realize,

Until now.

I’m so tired, tired of being vigilant, and I’m tired of caring. I’m sick of walking with my back up and chin tilted along with the stupid poker face to complete the facade. And, I’m sick of telling, reminding, scolding, reprimanding – all of you to buck up your image and professionalism. I absolutely cringe with loathing at the line, ‘Aiyah, simply lah.’ I hate that kind of lackadaisical attitude you portray, it’s filthy. And it’s NOT COOL to not care. That is lame to the highest order. You here? Buck up you lazy asses. And please watch your image, especially outside class. Don’t ever give a prefect any reason to apprehend you. It’s humiliating. Have you no pride? Yes? No? If not, leave. We don’t need people like you. But I have hope in the few who work in the shadows, I respect you, and you are my hope. And also for the new batch. Good luck.

Regard this as the speech I wish to present on my farewell, but never will.

Sometimes I wonder, if all that work pretending has really gotten to me, maybe it has, so I’ll just try to live with it. Change doesn’t come easy for me, it fascinates me, but it also scares me to death. But once I yield in acceptance, the rest is easy.

* * *

I officially dub this day NO-FOOD/TORTURE DAY. The day where all the food in the canteen ran out, and finally came late. Torture because I was ravished. And believe me when I say, GIRLS CAN EAT.

Finally, Aileen's MTV Overview

2008-08-04T02:56:00.000-07:00

The seats as they are-a filling up.

The VIP area, right behind the stars seats.

"Thank you thank you thank you Amirah for the MTV Asia Awards tickets, and to your lovely (and wacky) parents for chapheroning me up and down Genting. I would also like to thank my beautiful mom and handsome father for agreeing to this without argument, and my brother for being well, him. And Vi-Jean and Yee Vonne for making it too. It was just too bad our seats were separated, eh?"

Jabbawokeez (from Step Up 2) kick started the awards with their awesome dance moves and incredible coordination. Was totally screaming for them all the way, shame though, wish it lasted longer. The Pussycat Dolls were totally strutting their stuff and for that, I wish I was in the mosh pit dancing too. XD

Jabbawockeez on the side stage!

Blooper! Their second song, When I Grow Up music stopped halfway through Nicole's vocals at the beginning. Thankfully, it was well covered up.

OneRepublic was absolutely lovely. Their bassist also happens to be a celloist, and my did he play with vigour and bouncy hair XD. The same can be said for their lead singer, who did a piano number along with Mr Bouncy Hair on Apologise before graduating (both) to guitars for Stop and Stare.

After that we had a few local performances : Singapore rock band and Stephanie Sun collaborated on a song about natural disasters in Asia.

Despite my apparent lack of interest or exposure on Korean music, I must say, Super Juniors performance did not fail to impress. Their vocals were reasonably synced for such a large group, and their dance on the second song was mind blowing. However, it was obvious that they had to lip-sing that one. Oh well.

Super Junior doing their thing

AILEEN'S PERSONAL FAVOURITES.
OneRepublic was absolutely lovely. Their bassist also happens to be a celloist, and my did he play with vigour and bouncy hair XD. The same can be said for their lead singer, who did a piano number along with Mr Bouncy Hair on Apologise before graduating (both) to guitars for Stop and Stare. Today I was still humming their songs in school =)

Jabbawokeez!

Pop Shuvit's Project E.A.R. collaboration with other bands from Philliphines and Indonesia. Mind blowing! However Western rockers rock, Malaysian rockers can rock harder. LOL.

It's not very clear here, but the Click Five started off with a kompang percussion and flute accompanyment. The lead singer was actually trying out the kompang XD

Panic! at the Disco!!!!!!!! [insert eardrum-shattering scream here]. In accordance to their whimsical showmanship and their Best Style award, Panic! at the Disco ended the awards with much flair and flamboyance. Chinese acrobats flipped in between the rocking band, while some were on the side stage in a bone breaking formation. Then came the can-can dancers and a marching band clad in red.

They sound better live!

They made us scream 'whore!' for the song I Write Sins Not Tragedies!

Jared Leto should loose the eyeliner!

Karen Mok should put on weight!
and tame her hair

The Phillipino band Chirochi should compose themselves when hugging and kissing PCD!
What will your mothers think? tsk tsk

A very happy author. =)

Bona fide

2008-07-30T02:12:00.000-07:00

Ah yes, something just occured to me. Those who remember my old blog layouts should recall a wishlist somewhere. Now, if I myself recall as I should, the list went somewhat like...

1. ~~Diploma in Pianoforte~~
2. ~~New handphone~~
3. ~~Digital camera~~
4. ~~mp3 player~~
5. ~~Straight A's for PMR~~
6. Straight A's for SPM
7. Hotness
8. A boyfriend
9. Learn to ice skate
10. ~~Laptop~~
11. A dog
12. ~~Kiwanis Key Leader~~
13. ~~Be a BRAT~~
14. Go to Outward Bound School again

Well, material wealth isn't everything, but it sure counts!

Elaborations in the next post. Oh, and I curled my hair too. :)

So loyalists and faithful friends of afar, please, do try and keep up.

Looking forward to making pewter and MTV Asia Awards (and possibly sleeping over at Amirah's place)

Loves.

Thank You

2008-07-18T02:30:00.000-07:00

A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared .

Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, 'What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?'

The young boy was apologetic. 'Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do,' He pleaded. 'I threw the brick because no one else would stop...' With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. 'It's my brother, 'he said. 'He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up.'

Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, 'Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me.'

Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.

'Thank you and may God bless you,' the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy! push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.

It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: 'Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!' God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.

If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.

If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.

He sends you flowers every spring.

He sends you a sunrise every morning.
Face it, friend - He is crazy about you!

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Always both

2008-06-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

I met a guy on the LRT the other day.

He ranted on how the world was going to end, and that there would be many murders by God. He told me and my friend to be careful. All the while, my eyes raked his exterior. Decently dressed, but with aging sneakers; a ring and a gold watch, probably once rich. In a higher income group; an old umbrella, not doing to so well now. I asked, 'Do you have a family?'. 'No.' That explains everything.

I was right. This man used to work in an oil business in America. Before Malaysia, he lived in Singapore. 'The world is coming to an end, bad times for the world these days.' Then he pointed behind us, at the sky. 'Bad', he shook his head. 'It's going to rain.' Wow, he already had an umbrella, I thought.

Also, he kept repeating, 'I'm Catholic,' while motioning to his heart with his right fist. 'I go to church, pray often.' As the train reached Masjid Jamek, suddenly he exclaimed, 'There's my church! See, St John's.' But it was Wesley Methodist Church he was pointing at, I've been there. It's beside MBS. Plus, as the name suggests, that church is Methodist.

He got off just as we did, I looked back, expecting to not find him. Like in the movies, where the angel suddenly dissapears, but he was there, walking in the opposite direction, taking the opposite stairs.

I would have liked to believe that he was a messenger from above. But Hui Ning and I concluded that loneliness and religion sometimes distorts reality. But what if faith was the only thing keeping this man alive? I'm confused.

But the world was never black or white. It's both, always both.

Showdown perhaps

2008-06-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

A possible breakdance battle might ensue tomorrow. Time, after senior school hours. Location, unknown. Who? Alvin vs Kartigan.. Line from Alvin, 'If you don't show up, you're a effing pussy!' note, this blogger is merely reporting a possible event. She shall not be responsible for the actual precedings on the day of. She has also obtained verbal permission to blog. This was posted via handphone, praise be all. Have a nice day all =)

Relay for Life

2008-06-04T02:43:00.000-07:00

Participants walk in a 16 hour relay to symbolize the ongoing fight for cancer. Now I feel like a promoter right out of the tv add, haha! This year was much more organised that last years relay. And they had 8 foreign countries participating, that puts a smile on any guy or girls face, admit it! But on with a personal account/essay. You have been forewarned.

I was ready to succumb into self-inflicted depression once they left. For the only SBU-ians were Charlotte, Aimee and Desmond. For I was to be the only one (Andy hardly counts) to be staying overnight in that desolate place. After the high of walking backwards 10 rounds in a line with numerous people I barely knew, I was resigned to let the waves of helplessness roll over me. And for a while, thats what I did, doing nothing.

For this time would be different, and I knew it. But then I got up and braced myself to put on a sporting show. Because that was me, I don't dwell on depressing things much more than necessary, its unhealthy. I was thinking that if I couldn't have company, I'll make company. Besides, 'if you can't fight them, join them'; so the saying goes.

It was in this state of mind that I went to see the Relay for Life Pageant and screamed my lungs out. The ecstasy was much helped by shock and ridicule.

This guy was actually forced into a bra. I could see it sticking out at the back.

This picture disturbs me slightly, maybe because I got to know this model in person afterward. After all, at that time I was thinking, 'Dear God, he really looks like a girl!'

First Runner-Up. My personal favourite. He was totally burning the stage with attitude and sexyness!

Crowned Miss Relay for Life. I must admit, he/she is mighty classy. Wouldn't be able to tell the difference in public.

The beautiful contestants. XD

Their Chicken Dance was all wrong, and this triggered another wave of sadness, for entirely different reasons. I missed my Sexylicious gang, knowing I was obliged to be here instead of there, celebrating Nisha's farewell. I really did miss them, and I know it doesn't show, not much, but I do. I wished they were all there so that in one spark of youthful rebellion, we'd all jump on stage, shove all the fakers off, steal the mike and go 'No way man, this is how you do it!'

But then I snapped out of my unprecidented reverie and plunged, headlong into the back lines of the dance, the lady grabbing my left hand with a smile. I smiled back, an automatic response. It was halfway through when a man caught my peripheral vision, naturally, I held my hand out and he took it willingly. The dancing never stopped. At that time I thought, rather unconciously, 'Damn, a nerd. Just my luck.' And he did look the part, a round, hairless face, framed by circular glasses, largely outdated.

Unbeknownst to me, that would be the first friend I made there. The first phrase I remember would be 'I'm from Taiping.' Haha! The irony. He was one of the few who cycled from Taiping all the way to this stadium. It all took 26 cyclists, and 3 days. Only 8 made it to the stadium. Out of that, only 4 actually cycled thoughout the 16 hours.

Naturally, that triggered my dream of cycling around Malaysia with a friend(s). And to think it started out as a fanciful daydream we 'ironed out' online. Haha

His name was Tzuo Hann, and he was 24. I did a double take on the age, I never expected him to be so OLD. But old, in a way, was pretty good, I needed a conversation which made sense once in a while. And also the added bonus of debating and verbal hedging and sarcasm. I was surprised at the ease of it. Either I was really and truly growing up, or he was mentally still a teenager. I couldn't tell. I was prejudiced.

Only later I got to know a Nottingham student. That started with a bike ride. We talked about many things, but the most surprising, and disturbing, I might add, would be the subject of cancer. It was a surprise really, but he'd been bouncing questions off me randomly out of boredom, I felt like I was being cross-examined.

J : What would you if you found out you had cancer?

I paused, doing another double take, thinking I'd better stop doing that. But my thoughtful expression gave me an idea.

A : How do you know I'm not already having cancer?

My voice was light and cheery, intending it to be a joke. But it came out all wrong. Now it was his turn to do a double take.

J : Are you serious?

I shrugged, half skipping.

About 100m later he asked again.

J : Are you seriously having cancer?

I could see that this was getting too far, I shook my head and stared.

A : NO, of course not.

J : You got me scared there, I spent the last 100m thinking of what to say to you!

Haha, but the worst wasn't over.

J : If you had cancer though, what would you do?

I had to think about that one for a while...

A : Nothing.

And for some reason, I was absolutely positive.

J : Come on, I'm sure that there'd be things you want to do, specially.

A : Nope. Nothing. If I had cancer, I wouldn't tell anybody. I don't need sympathy. Besides, its more fun that way.

Notice the resemblance based on the above? =p

And in a way I knew I was right. I would want life to be exactly as it is now. Its not perfect, but its comfortable. Of course, my resolve might shake sometime... But really, who's getting cancer anytime soon? =)

Same Place, Different Things ver.3

2008-06-04T02:30:00.000-07:00

I shan't bother with the pictures, they're mostly camwhored anyway. Most of the time was spent with a pack of cards on the bus. But that was closer to the end. At the beginning I just caught up with Jeff about stuff, relationships (well, without the plural, since only one of us was having a relationship), college, school... Stuff we haven't been able to talk about in a long time. And it was good, talking to him, a big brother in so many ways although I have plenty of THAT. My family has more boys than necessary, on my dads side at least.

The other half started after lunch. Baskin Robbins completes every UBS Trip, every year, without fail. Sorry, just needed to add that. And so we educated Faiz and Melvin on Shithead and all its glorious beauty. Then, we played Bluff, in desperate need of group entertainment. It was pathetic, but in a fun way.

Too bad about the Love/Hate game though, we should definitely play that someday. I'd love to see us slapping and um... kissing(?) each other.

But after BRATs, the latter shouldn't be a problem, aye? ;)

Same Place, Different Things ver.2

2008-06-02T03:19:00.000-07:00

The airconditioning in the master bedroom is just pathetic, at best. I vowed to sleep in the family room on the upper floor, or kick the boys out of their room. But since they provided the space (and air conditioning) for our later-than-midnight movie, I chose the previous.

Watching Step Up 2 on a miniscule portable DVD player in an over-crowded room was... unusual. That, and not counting Muru trying to burst a pack of Twisties to scare Pui Ying, and Faiz ACTUALLY bursting a pack of Twisties, which made manouvering hard, and everyone curse.

The next morning saw the boys dissapear as the girls had fun preparing breakfast anyway.

'Good morning!' Smiley Scrambled Eggs says. XD

Should I express again how beautiful the place is? Hush, the bag and racquets are stolen goods.

The gym as a wall of dedicated mirrors! Joy!

Didn't take any pictures of the bowling competition, unfortunately. Three rounds of that stuff can kill you. That, and swimming in an Olympic sized pool lengthwise. That, and being elbowed hard in the temple whilst playing Water Polo.

Surprisingly, I found it hard to sleep that night (morning). Was supposed to fall asleep at 3 plus, and I was going to, until SOMEBODY started snoring. Heh, go figure.

Same Place, Different Things ver.1

2008-05-27T20:43:00.000-07:00

Good things never last, and the best things will always go by too fast.

I did wonder how I migrated from the back to the front of the bus permanently... Curse that stupid six-sided, 2x2, miniature.. Rubix cube. Spent most of the time teaching Melvin to play Shithead, which resulted in him ending up with three quarters of the entire deck in his hands so there wasn't much competition. Shithead XD

Went gift shopping for my secret friend at the stop at Pagoh. Quote : 'Think, Bukit Kepong'.

Shopping at Giant was a very lively affair, with lost people and quantity debates. Why do I have a feeling we got 2 of everything? Haha

See see! The grand total says RM 115.28, thats RM 4.72 UNDER BUDGET! We're so proud of ourselves =D

Only Pui Ying, Puan Song, Jeremy, Melvin, Faiz, Niklaus and Ji On(?) will ever know how much I progressed at bowling from that evening XD

As the bed was lifted off its base, the truth was revealed..

Bra and panties!

'Maybe its on of those voodoo things'. Huey Shan

Happy Birthday Hui Ning

2008-05-27T04:41:00.000-07:00

Jeez, I know it's kinda late, but my dearest-est dbkl worker celebrated her 17th birthday in well-fed style. God bless California Pizza Kitchen.

Loves =)

Who Am I?

2008-05-17T10:26:00.000-07:00

I am the saviour of the people
Swords are raised and armies swollen and fallen
The masses would die for me
Yet I create the miracles of life
Who am I?
I am Faith.

Worthy is the one who earns me
Betrayed is the one who misplaces
I can be given, and also retracted
I am needed for any relationship
Who am I?
I am Trust.

I am lived, breathed and felt
I can move continents and change the world
But I'm only as powerful as the people
Some call me an illusion, a lie
Who am I?
I am Love.

Sparks fly when I'm around
I ignite the deepest desires
And drive steely determination
I am the son of Love and Trust
Who am I?
I am Passion.

My sparks are from hell
The devil's hands are my mould
Anger is my servant and slave
I blind the heart and poison the soul
Who am I?
I am Jealousy.

Physical hurt is my illusion
I inflict conflict with the utmost of intention
Emotional reformation is evolution
But only if they not drown, but learn to swim
Who am I?
I am Pain.

I am a weight at the ankle
I can be dragged for eternity and never let go
Nobody wants me there
But I am everywhere, in every street
Who am I?
I am Suffering.

I am the most powerful of them all
The most prevalent in unwritten history
I overshadow all of Suffering
I am the will to live
Who am I?
I am Hope.

Everything above is who I am
Everything and so much more
My posibilities have no horizon
My dreams,borderless
I am capable of all things
Yet I can be nothing at all
The world is in my hands to grasp
So what am I waiting for then?
Who am I?

Well, I am Man.

* Aileen is thinking that it should be submitted to the school magazine, but wonders if its good enough. However, she thinks that her inspiration has come home at last. Rejoice.

Salvation Will Come

2008-05-15T03:38:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry I'm bad
I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry bout all the things I did to you
And I know...

I have been neglecting my blog.

But I promise you, it will be revived during the coming holidays. Just as I created the art for my banner as of above, I shall attempt a new revamp. And I don't believe in internet ripping for my banner, its mucho unoriginal, such a rip-off. Bleeh.

Be still and know, salvation will come.

Of Courses - The Drama'll have to Wait

2008-04-09T05:54:00.000-07:00

The best Kursus Asas PRS I know. My Kotak Ajaib was fad yo! Thank you Ebe... And it was a course fraught with fun and frantic planning on the facilitators and module conductors part.

Lesson learnt : No one gets it right the first time, I didn't.

Faiz looking all smugness. Dahlah his crown says 'Kutuk Saya!'

There were racial issues, and I shan't dwell on that, because I get so upset, simply because I expected much more decent decorum, albeit not from SBU.

Terence. Glad to be rid of your twin sister for once? Evil...

But it was fun, much. On the first night, in our chalet, we were watching X-Men 2 without actually paying attention because we were gossiping and stuffing all the junkfood we can. Then a Malay horror movie advert came on and it was part lame, part gross because it showed a dismembered face. Then, an advert for Shutter was next and that was spooky. Suddenly there was a soft knock on the door, and our noise went up and then silence as Hui Ning approached the door and lifted the curtain to see outside.

Well, she scream, I scream, all scream.

It was Ebe, whom she mistook as a woman. o.O

Jarrett celebrated his birthday there! Praise your faci's, they got a cake for you outside! Be thankful kid.

Memorable moment 1 : Knocking Pn Songs head by accident at the beach.

Memorable moment 2 : Playing football with the juniors. =)

Memorable moment 3 : Falling asleep to Shin Ee's voice on the 2nd night. Bloody hypnotic.

Thought : It's my last Kursus Asas... I'm already counting off the days =/

After Effects

2008-04-03T08:40:00.000-07:00

Thinesh brought us jelly today. I love that kid. And oh, look at me, I'm still smiling!

Funny how a little thoughtfulness makes someone's day. So practice RAK! [Random Acts of Kindness] I swear it helps.

Today I shall also chronicalize a promise Melvin made to me. Actually, Pui Ying and I were just questioning his steadfastness in becoming a lawyer. Then it turned into a 'so-it-means-you're-gonna-leave-UBS-la!' interrogation. He looked so stunned, as any good junior is when confronted with two seniors with their arms crossed. I think he nearly cried too, but then again, we're all in the drama team so expressions cannot be fully trusted.

'There are 3 things you promised me.'

1. You'll stay in UBS until Form 5.
2. ... AND become president.
3. And when you do, you'll have to fly and find me, where ever I am.

Terms and Conditions : If Niren cannot join you, you shall pay for his air ticket. I'll be 21 then, good luck my lil bro. =]

P.S. , I like your brother's name : Edward. Haha Tanjung Puteri's gonna be a blast. I'll play football with you guys again. But please, have mercy.

* * *

I saw Ming Wai's picture in St John's school magazine. So ugly! I mean, he didn't smile, so it was... ugly. Man I miss that blob, now hairless.

Bless Her

2008-03-25T02:53:00.000-07:00

Talk about essay writing... Ish. I said black and got white.

Firstly, I would like to thank the people that made it my birthday lunch.

Secondly, I would like to say that I love you guys. That was a lot of Happy Birthday singing. =) And the presents are fad. They are being showcased in my room, haha.

And Hui Ning's pendant from French-Fry-Throwing-Country is loved too =)

Thirdly, Happy Belated Birthday Edwin!! Meant to wish you earlier, but I was preoccupied with exams.

Fourthly, despite myself, I am excited about the coming Kursus Asas. UBS rocks!

And fifth, I think I have decided.

Bless her.

Don't Wanna Dance Alone

2008-03-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

My heart races and the increased blood pressure is making my head throb. My palms tingle with sensation as the rushing red liquid rushes and warms my body. But I can't turn away, away from a reminder of something I could have done.

'It would be nice to move like that.' I jolted back to reality. When did my mother decide to join me on the couch? But as soon as I shrugged of the non-memory, another sentence registered.
'Wouldn't you want to learn?' I wanted to scream, YES! Oh yes, find me a place, anyone! I'll do it now! But instead I muttered, 'Aren't I too old for that?'

Why was she inquiring so? I'm sure my look didn't betray more than polite wonder, no more than anybody paying attention to the idiot box in the living area. 'You're never too old. You're seventeen. Seventeen isn't old.' Whoops, talking to the wrong age group, let alone person. 'Find a place, and we'll check it out.'

'Yeah, like, where?' Curses, what am I doing? Curiously, my voice broke, but only a little. Obvious to me, but hopefully, not anyone else. 'And I'd need a partner.' There, that was the problem.

'Take dad,' intervined a scornful voice. My attention was diverted to Andy now. 'Rather him than you.'

Of all the things I could have taken up when I was younger, more than gymnastics, more than cheerleading, I wanted to dance.

This is one of the things individuals usually keep to themselves. The weird stuff like, maybe they still kept their Barbie dolls and combed their hair every week. Or secretly sniffing their feet to check for new odours. Stuff like that. Well, here's one I'm practically announcing... I.want.to.ballroom.dance.

I still wonder if I could, after SPM. Would I be too old? What if I walked into a class and everybody laughed at me? Where would I ever find such a place in KL? Would it be expensive? Far? What if I'm no good at it at all?

What if... I had no partner?

So here goes, does ANYBODY want to be my partner, and scout a class somewhere, and we can start after SPM. Oh, and you'd have to be a guy. Sorry girls! I just don't feel comfortable starting off with someone unfamiliar. Some unfamiliar guy. That, would be terrible. I'm dead serious by the way. You can leave a comment here, or IM me at cal_aileen@hotmail.com. Heck, you can even E-MAIL me.

And if nobody says anything, I'll just shut up and move on. =X

How To Sanitize Your Own Wound

2008-03-06T05:26:00.000-08:00

If you have a wound, which starts off looking like this...

Then produces pus that is not only yellow but grey-ish, makes you limp, and end up in an outpatient ward in Gleneagles Intan...

Its too ugly, you'd puke, I swear. But the doctor who attended to me was so kind and lovely, her name was Dr Aida. I think I've been treated twice by her. And the nurse was equally delightful. She changed my band aid twice because it kept coming off. I love smiling nurses =)

If you have all the above symptoms and start taking pointless sepia tinted pictures that have no purpose or present you in a less-than-perfect way, you probably have what I have.

How To Sterilize Your Own Wound.

First, you need all the objects as of below. Saline solutions, cotton buds, a 'container', tweezer, and cotton balls. Actually, tweezers and cotton balls serve the same purpose as the cotton buds by themselves. I just added them for variety. It usually depends on the severity of the wound. Ouch!

And of course, you need...... a wound. Just pour a bit of saline solution, dip it with a cotton bud or a cotton ball, and try not to wince.

After 5 days, I think it looked worse, then better, then worse. Okay, I'm not making any sense. Nevermind.

No Rain, No Pain

2008-03-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

No wonder sleep didn't come that night. It rained the whole time. And morning brought no respite. We all arrive before 6.30 a.m. It was still raining, and Philip and I made our way to the field. My nerves were on a high. Were the decorations we set up the day before still there? Had they dropped? Have the words been blown away by the wind to some unknown place? At first, I though it had all gone, it was so dark.

The Maclay people had started congregating at their tent. The continuous rain and wind made me shiver, physically and emotionally. We did all we could; some props for the tent couldn't go up in the rain.

While most of the school was busy congregating at the skylite, the Shirtliff camp base ;) was inhibited by Karthigan, Thamaraj and girlfriend, and myself. Marc joined us soon after, in all his splendour of Aztectian gear. Nothing much happened : I threatened Kartigan and Thamaraj with sewing scissors for threatening to dismantle stuff. The kind Chucky used to kill people. And Marc and I exchanged tales our Taekwondo lives.

But soon the crowd started to arrive and still only half of everything was up. And believe me, there were a lot. Lets just say, everything on our draft materialised =). But when it was up, it was oh-so beautiful. I think that as I ran my 100m and 200m, the gang put up the shield in the middle, and poked the sepanduk into the ground.

I had long planned to run barefoot. My spikes were thrashed beyond repair, and I hate running in soggy sport shoes. But lo behold, at the end of the 100m race, I slipped and fell SPLAT on my arse, resulting in a butt-slide of a few meters in muddy water. As I limped my way to the toilet to clean up as best I could, I realised my left foot had started bleeding. Oh well, too late to do anything about it.

Nike ad audition 1. Spot me!

Zi Kang threatened to carry me to the 200m starting point if I didn't hobble faster. How compasionate. Surprisingly, my foot didn't hurt during the run. Or maybe it did, I just didn't notice. The beauty and curse about short distance runs is that from the moment you get into the ready position, and during the run, there is no real thought or memory. Suddenly you just wake up at the finish line in a daze, wondering for a moment, if the run actually happened at all. Then a teacher comes up and asks for your name, and you know you've cliched a place at the top 3.

After looking at my still shots did I realise I was swinging my arms wrong. =/

Hamizah totally screwed her 400m run, but our 4x100m team were secretly half-happy. At least she would have energy for our event. She was our first runner. It would be an extremely win-driven race. Yee Vonne, Hamizah and I had been in the same team for the same event for a long time. So far, the 3rd runner void had always been filled with nonsense runners. But now we had Ee Laine; our team was complete.

My pride and joy. Remember the eagle banners? I'll never look at double sided tape and glitter the same way ever again. Notice some bajet people in the background? =p

*sigh*

I love it. I love it. I love it! Thank you, everybody! =D

But right before the run, Yee Vonne had some funny two-toed cramp, and Hamizah hadn't returned from the finish line. Panic, panic, panic! And Melissa nearly had to run, but all's well, ends well. We were leading from the start. =D

Hamizah led by about 3 meters;
Yee Vonne maintained and added another 2 meters of lead;
Ee Laine's was a pretty close race with Amirah, but she had style, that one;
I can't really say how I did. I just know that I had this sudden burst of determination halfway through, and I know I went faster halfway. Even before the finish, I was already shamelessly screaming with joy. =D The team met up at the score board and we just hugged and screamed and hugged some more. XD

Seniors and Pn Zamzila.

Overall, Shirtliff's track events were so much better than last year, with lots of potential. The best memory (other than the Girls Under-18 win) would have to be the Guys Under-15 4x400m relay. We were leading by 200-300 meters.

Subsequently, Arjun was awarded Sportsman of the Year (Boys Under-15) =D. He can definitely take me to prom! Awi and I had always supported each other through our running years, and this year was no different. If we could face MSSKL together, being in different houses shouldn't be any different. Congrats to our Sportsman of the Year (Boys Under-18)! Oh, and Bev, you deserved it. Our only girl captain led Maclay to victory this year, and was awarded Sportswoman of the Year (Girls Under-18). We love you =)

Pictures!

Vi-Jean and I look weird in both our cameras. XD

Its okay, its alright, come on Shirtliff fight fight fight!

The winners are the ones holding up their numbers. The others are impersonators. x]

Nike ad audition 2. Wei Lin.

Nike ad audition 3. Charlotte.

Same shorts! My leg is as big as Shaun's o.O ...Fat!!

Holding out medals, which cannot rival Awi's. Look beyond the trophies at all the gold. Wow!

Arjun! I knew he was good from day 1! Awesomeness!

The bottom line? Shirtliff got last again. But we lost to Cooke by 1 point. Just check out the board man. Shirtliff, Green and Prouse have the most Gold medals; Shirtliff and Maclay had the most medals won; Shirtliff won Best Tent. It was our Sukantara that pulled the whole thing down =/

A complete set! Gold : 4x100m; Silver: 200m; Bronze: 100m.

Battle scars. The wound under the plaster is pus-ing up. Gross.

Haven't You Heard?

2008-02-29T03:16:00.000-08:00

The tears just wouldn't come out right. Maybe it isn't time, not yet anyway. At least, thats what I told Zi Kang. He said he was going to trash his room and pull out all the imaginary feathers in his pillow. I was supposed to rip the heads off all my soft toys.

Sports Day is tomorrow anyway, who cares about the competition? Pn Jasbir confirmed that we are half lost anyway, so why bother?

No, we didn't win the board. So much work went into that stupid thing, and Maclay walks of winner. After all that, second place sucks. Quoting Pn Jasbir, 'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.' Pengetua evaluated today already. It was effing TACKY.

How can Maclay get more points for Sukantara? I don't know. I.don't.know.

I don't know if Pn Jasbir is initially lying to deflate us, she just isn't that kind of person. Personally, I don't really believe, but I'm afraid to be proven wrong, everybody is.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW SHIRTLIFF CAN NOT WIN!

All of us went beyond the call of duty.

We started the earliest.

We are the most systematic, we ALWAYS finish on deadline. Unlike some.

We work together. 2008 seniors rock rock ROCK!

Our Saringan was strong. Everybody admits.

We have the most renowed artists in the school.

We came to school on WEEKENDS.

Our kawad is coordinated. Though Prouse is, admittedly, unique. =)

We help other houses, and vice versa.

Our mascots are so WOW. Long live the Aztecs!

Our tent design and production started a week earlier before everyone.

We finished today while others were still slogging everywhere.

We exceeded the budget the most. XD

We spent RM 145 for a freegin feather string from Petaling Street because Zi Kang had deja vu and both he and Philip are useless bargainers.

We spend RM 100 plus for costume rental.

Philip did a wonderful job with the flag.

I slept at 7pm yesterday and woke at 2am today to finish our banners, and stayed up until now.

I have double sided tape cuts from doing those! I never want to see gold dust again. Ever.

For those who don't know, or care; and here I'm referring to non-SBUians. Sports Day is a VERY VERY cataclysmic force of the school year. Come to the school field to catch the march past and performances by students. Believe me, it'll be good. Always is.

And after all that, I still believe ITS OUR TURN.

If not, you'll just find a whole bunch of us crying in the middle of the field in the midafternoon sun. Thats all.

US

Zi Kang

Philip

Aimee

Charlotte

Hamizah

Yee Vonne

Vi-Jean

Me.

l.o.l.

2008-02-21T06:39:00.000-08:00

I.am.going.to.fail.my.SPM. God I need a laugh, share it with me.

BRILLIANT WAYS GIRLS TURN GUYS DOWN!!

HE: I'm a photographer I've been looking for a face like yours!
SHE: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours!!

HE: May I have the pleasure of this dance?
SHE: No, I'd like to have some pleasure too!!!

HE: Will you come out with me this Saturday?
SHE: Sorry! I'm having a headache this weekend!!!

HE: Go on, don't be shy. Ask me out!
SHE: Okay, get out!!!

HE: I think I could make you very happy
SHE: Why? Are you leaving?

HE: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE: Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time!!!

HE: Can I have your name?
SHE: Why, don't you already have one?

HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Hiding from you.

HE: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
SHE: Yes, thats why I don't go there anymore.

HE: Is this seat empty?
SHE: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

This Trend Ain't Fad

2008-02-19T03:40:00.000-08:00

Yea yea, because I promised Edwin. See, I did it! Despite my *ahem* tight schedule. ;)

5 things found in my bag
- books
- my pretty organiser from Hui Ning <3
- markers
- 'boogers are a good source of protein' badge
- tampons =X (nah, just kidding)

5 things found in my wallet
- secret recipe receipt
- photostat IC
- lots of RM1 notes
- locker key
- paper with Faisal's name o.O From the secret friend game, I think

5 favourite things in my room
- bed
- mirror
- marble tiles
- bible
- bottom of bed, where i chuck stuff

5 things I always wanted to do.
- punch the wall and leave a mark (never happening anyway XD)
- bring the librarians to key leader. then, we'll bring our 'signature food' and party on the last night. mwahahahahaaa!
- lie on a beach alone, somewhere
- score well in my exams
- rob a bank with edwin

5 things I'm currently into
- wishing i had more sleep
- lameness
- thinking
- losing hair
- toenails

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
- holiday
- money machine which opens only for me and automatically restocks =P
- hugs
- sleep
- Shirtliff to win. please?

The person who tagged you is: Edwiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!

Your 5 impressions of him/her:
- too tall, not my ideal height XD
- happy happy
- cant play Concentration when sleepy x]
- enjoys laughing at me
- rich. too rich. he needs to share with me!

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you:
haha! hair -_-"... arm hair.

If he/she becomes you lover, you will:
kantao all his money first, then leave him. cannot la.... too tall! ahahaha

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
we argued about the price of something?? nah, not gonna happen

Pass the quiz to 5 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
Vi-Jean
Tata
Zunny
Natalie
Vina

Send it back, and I'll kill you.

Imaaagination (Spongebob Squarepants)

2008-02-07T07:21:00.000-08:00

Since I'm leaving for hometown tomorrow, and probably won't blog for the week after this, I'll just do this 'just for kicks'. XD Humour me.

5 things found in my bag
(Which one? XD I'll shift between 3 bags yeah? That ought to be legal.)
-School books
-Pencil box
-Sketch book
-My tie o.O
-iPod baby

5 things found in my wallet (purse!)
-Locker key
-Epicenter Passporte card
-Photostat IC
-Amirah's Interact card
-Lyrics to new school songs I'll never memorise

5 favourite things in my room
-My bed (new sheets and quilt =D)
-Hush Puppies picture 'frame'
-Aileen doll x]
-Tennis balls
-Super Spider Pigs poster (Thanks for salvaging this Qian! I owe you one. No thanks to Ming Wai, who nearly threw it away -_-)

5 things I always wanted to do.
-Backpacking with a friend/friends
-Get married at the same time as VJ and Amirah, and our kids will go to the same school, and be besties too! XD
-Break the fire alarm with a Sejarah book so the school would ban it, too. And not just scissors.
-Go to church
-Have a 5 digit salary by the age of 30

5 things I'm currently into
-Juggling =P (hence, the tennis balls)
-Keyboarding
-Working my ass off
-Flying
-Providing entertainment to a certain group XD

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
1. A grand piano =D
2. Migrate + Now = No SPM
3. Free concert and event tickets from Shaun =p
4. Money. Lots of it.
5. Starbucks. Still craving =/

The person who tagged you is: Julian Lau Aik Hong
Your 5 impressions of him/her:
1. Nice teeth XD
2. Switchfoot fanatic
3. Has a lot of spare time
4. Likes black
5. Picky eater x]

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you:
Cicak pendant from Kinabalu. Now dead. =X

If he/she becomes you lover, you will:
Gain weight from eating everything he doesn't want. XD

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
I threw his computer out of the window and ran away with his handphone.

Pass the quiz to 5 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
Ken Lam (have fun bitch =p)
Pui Ying (be les. I don't care)
Sheena (we're already together, so its okay =])
Edwiiiiin (i smsed you in hong kong. You owe me)
... Julian (for making me run to my bag and room a trillion times. Do again! XD)

Happy Rat Year

2008-02-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

It's that time of year again! So far my favouritest guests were the last ones we had. Joy! The twins look beautiful, radiant, to-be-21 year-olds, Joshua looks like Andy, but presumably more dashing, and Shaun looks like, well, Shaun. With extra eyebags, the poor soul.

They all went to see Switchfoot! I can't believe this! If this had come to my knowledge earlier I would definitely have been allowed to go! Why not? Shaun is 25, Bernice and Eunice are 21, and Joshua is 16 - Lots of tender loving care. Whyyyyyy?? Yeah, you can hear me moaning, twiching and unleashing tantrums on whoever unfortunate enough to come close. In this case, Josh. Sorry darling! XD

The mothers think we look alike, I beg to differ. I wanna go to Canada with them!

The boys. They all kinda look alike. Oh, look, traffic lights!

Funny face time! Love this one =D

I hate my camera flash, it sucks.

Too big for Andrew, just right for me; Nevermind that it flaunts the line 'Tough Guy'.

Publish-able? Haha working on it.

Who misses my camwhoring days? I bet you do, I bet you so do =p

Happy 200

2008-02-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

Dear blog, happy 200th! You are officially two-century-posts old!

Oh and what a coincidence, Switchfoot is here today. Probably still playing now, at KL Convention Center... A half-decent, innocent band comes practically next door, open to my convenience, and yet, I'm stuck at home. Not like I tried to ask. No point in throwing gasoline into the fire; or start any friction in the first place. Its a definite NO.
Julian had better get that guitar.

God is great. Ask and you shall receive. I've been out the whole day, Subash, dentist, Midvalley...

The dentist says I have Class 2 Division 2 teeth. I'd wager its pretty serious, because apparently my upper and lower jaw needs work. And you know how perfect teeth are arched nicely? Mine's not. My front teeth are flat and angled back, while my back teeth are angling to the front. Not good! So after some private and confidential discussion, (no, seriously) I will extract my teeth AND do my braces after SPM. I'm joining you Ken! and Keith... and Melody... ahahaha
and Yee Vonne...

Facts about ME! Tagged by Sabby

1. What colour pants are you wearing now?
Red. New Adidas shorts for Sports Day. Who cares if its for guys? I'm a gender rebel. Rawr.

.2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
I don't care.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Umm... does envious count? I want to be at that concert!

4. Do you have a best friend?
No. I have more than one =)

5. Who was the last person you hugged?
Think Key Leader Review... I think it was Heidi. No... in school.... Ummm, Ze Wei? Or Kevin? o.O I swear I was raped.

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
More than I'd ever admit.

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Yes. But I don't think I'll do it. I'm into the growing old graceful thing. But I might if I have a permanently scared injury due to an accident. Let's say, half my face is gone because I tried to cook a 5 course meal. XD

8. Do you like your life?
It sucks. But its MY life, and I'm glad to be alive. What are you saying Aileen?? That's so lame.

9. Do you shop at Hollister?
The closest thing I've heard to that is Hollaback. As in, Hollaback Girl by Kylie Minogue

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Not like I had one worth stealing anyway...

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Pool, tak ingat. Does a river count? I was wearing white. Haha

12.Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
I'm prejudiced.

13. How long have you had MySpace?
It's filled with perves. Never have, never will.

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Yeah, Andy especially XD. I don't repent that.. But I did slap-ish Yew Jin in Form 3 during class assembly, forgot why. I think I'm forgiven.

15. What are your biggest fears?
Losing those closest to me;
Change - I had a premonition in a series of 3 continuous dreams in 3 nights;
Dying alone.

16. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
My aunt and uncle - Bless my poor cousin now =( ;
My ah kong - Died a day before Andy was born;
My kong kong - Its been 3 years;
Ng Lee Ann - How can I forget you? Its been 7 years, mate.

17. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Haven't you?

18. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Lots of people, actually. Puan Song, cause I work for her, Miss Nina, cause I work for her too, the Sexylicious, and miscalleneous other acquiantances. =)

19. Do you believe in the saying, “Once a cheater, always a cheater"?
I believe in second chances and learning from mistakes. Yes, I'm a forgiver of sins, so sue me.

20. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Making noise on Amirah's teachers electric guitar and granting her grandparents no peace. Haha!

21. Do you ever wish you were famous?
I'm content with my popularity level, thanks.

22. Are you currently missing someone?
Yes.

23. Please tag 5 people:Pui Ying, Vi-Jean, Jesscia, Kenneth (har har), Kuan Yee.

Ground rules:
1. link to person that tagged you and post rules
2. list 8 random facts about yourself then tag 8 people, and add a black and white photo.

8 random facts:
1) My feet have cellulite.
2) It's illegal for me to sit on guys laps.
3) I can slide down bannisters.
4) I mix nasi goreng kampung with tom yam and a bit of milk (with Derrick) and still think it tasted fine.
5) It takes me a long time to get over someone who matters.
6) I cry watching anything but love stories.
7) My secret (not anymore) dream job is to open an underground store to allow students to disguise stuff and bring them to school.
8) I need new undies.

Tags : Pui Ying, Vi-Jean, Jesscia, Kenneth, Kuan Yee, Philip, Shin Ee, Zunny.

Practically everyone else has been tagged. Ish.

Sorry no black and white picture =/.

The Guardian

2008-01-28T05:32:00.002-08:00

I am further convinced that I'm strangely abnormal. Most people cry during love stories or movies. I cried watching The Guardian.

It's a story of responsibility, guilt, love (you didn't think it'd be completely devoid of it, did you?), sacrifice, and more importantly, redemption.

Ashton Kutcher (Fisher)is a 24-year-old who joins the U.S. Coast Guard to save lives after losing his friends and swim team mates in a terrible care accident. He was the driver, and the only survivor.

Kevin Costner (Senior Officer Randall) is a reputable Coast Guard. With hundreds of lives in debt to him, he is still haunted by the past : by those he failed to rescue.

The scenes I will always remember :

Scene 1

Fischer : It's like he's pissed with me for breaking every one of his records...

Girlfriend : Maybe he just wants to you be better...

Aged bartender walks over, leans over the bar.

Bartender : I'll tell you one record you won't break.

Walks away, takes down a newspaper article on the wall.

Bartender : This ship was sinking. It carried 22 passengers. Randall managed to save all of them, cept 1. The nearest base was 20 minutes away. With a broken winch and a patient hanging on, he said, 'I'll never let go.'

He never did. Tore all his tendons and dislocated his shoulder, and he never did let go. Unfortunately, the guy died anyway.

Break that record, then come tell me.

Scene 2

Fisher : There's something I gotta know, though, before you leave... What's your real number? (Number of save people).

Randall : 22

Fisher : *Shocked* umm... thats, alright, I guess. Not 200/300 (as rumoured)... But you know, it's still good...

Randall : 22 is the number of people I lost. Its the only number I'll ever remember...

Scene 3

Fisher : Don't do what I think you're gonna do!

Randall : The cable won't hold both of us!

Fisher : Senior Officent... don't!

Randall falls, Fisher catches one arm.

Fisher : I'll never let go!

Randall : I know...

Randall unstraps his glove, and he slips, and falls - almost gracefully, into the churning waves.

The U.S. Coast Guard then launched the biggest search for a single man in history. His body was never found. Sometimes the men joke about him being washed ashore on an island, and that he's now sitting on a rock, fishing. Just like he'd planned after he left. But I really do wonder where he is now...

I got my answer soon after. I pulled a guy out from a mildly hypothermia area. I was the first rescuer on the scene. Disorientated as he was, he insisted that there was a rescuer with him the whole time, 'But he was there! He was there he whole time... Said he'd never leave me... Never did,' he said. And so I knew...

He's there, beyond the waves, doing what he's always done: looking out for others. He'll always be their hero. He is The Guardian.

'So Others May Live.'

* * *

The Guardian made me think of God, and the U.S. Coast Guard's slogan made me think of Jesus. Queer, but that's the way it is. =)

The Lord is my lifevest. He gives me hope when I have none, He is my lifevest when I am drowning, He is my saviour. My guardian, always and forever.

Who's your guardian?

Back! - Again

2008-01-22T01:57:00.001-08:00

The second time my computer returned from the Intensive Care Unit at Carrefour, Wangsa Maju, a lot of goings-on has trainspired.

Location : School Field
Event : Shirtliff House Practice
Sub-Event : 100m unofficial trials

Me : *screams at juniors* Don't ever, EVER change lanes while running!! Do you want to bang each other at those speeds, fall over, and BREAK A LEG!? Don't laugh!! It's not funny! Don't laugh I say!! etc etc

Shin Ee : Umm... Aileen, dyou know that the SBS people are staring at you?

Me : *gasps and hides behind the bushes*

* * *

Location : Carrefour Wangsa Maju
Event : Retreival of CPU
Sub-Event : Toilets

What kind of contractor builds the male and female toilets side by side with one main entrance branching out into two, very nearly identical places of worship? Plus, the girls sign is the first thing you see, so you go 'Oh, this is the girls toilet. Yay!'

Conclusion : I got stuck in a cubicle in a guys toilet, bending down to observe various shoes, and vandalisme on the left 'wall' stating, Bohsia Setiawangsa, 014..........6. And I was there for half an hour. I so very much freaked out, that if I had any pee left in me, I'd pee in my pants. I nearly cried, it was oh-so frustrating!!

And then when I did manage to slink my way out, my mom screams at me, and makes me show her the place, because she thinks its 'ridiculous' that anything like that could happen.

Story, I walked in, and it was empty at that time. Then, I noticed the individual peeing what-nots, and almost turned. But, a guy and two kids came in, so I hid in a cubicle. Make sense so far? I'm sure it does.

So I wait, bidding my time until they leave. But as luck should have it, guys kept coming in and I had no chance of escape. Therefore I, the pitiful, was to be stuck in an abysmal cubicle, amid sounds of guys spitting into the toilet bowl in the cubicle on my left, and peeing sounds on my right. Then, the one of my right decided to take an effing smoke. I nearly died.

* * *

I clocked 29 seconds for 200m... Need. Speed. ><

Random, Magic

2008-01-14T03:14:00.000-08:00

The beginning of the first official full week of school is set to be brutal.

Today is the day Add Math first made me crazy this year.

Today is the day that I had a headache in English (last period).

Today is the day Shirtliff practice started.

Today was the day we were supposed to run, but it rained.

Today is the day Zi Kang, Wei Lin, Amirah, Ngee Ming, Thiban, Yee Jin... and others, start their captainship and vice-captainship duties.

Today is the day I found out that Zi Kang's voice sucks.

Today is the day I wanted Izuan to be captain.

Tomorrow is the day our first UBS meeting starts

Tomorrow is the day I give Muru the CD containining Ebe's political tantrum. XD

But today...

I NEED TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK! d'arvit! =)

Randomness, haha.

But hey, here's something for you guys. ;)

Don't know about you, but it sure worked for me!

I Love My Stupid New Old Computer

2008-01-12T06:53:00.000-08:00

It's empty. My computers never been this empty, its like, so unpersonified. But heck, its fast, and problem-free as of date, and I love Tata now, because he recommended the place. But WAIT, I'm having a flashback; he said it was in front of Bata, and in front of Bata was a video game store. Common sense saved the cat - when curiousity killed it. Though I'm not a cat, I'm human.

But NEVERTHELESS, I'm happy. But I have unfinished Sejarah notes due next month for two chapters and certain people in Alpha have done till Chapter Four.......

aaaaaa

*slaps self*

I shall not moan, not so early comrades. Nada. Nil.

I love filling this blog with nonsense whatever's.

And I love (for now) my stupid new old computer. *worships*

And I love the people who've been waiting for my resurrection =D

I'm baaaack...

Blue Christmas

2007-12-24T19:14:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas blogger babes and... babettes? Haha!

I hereby proclaim myself sane and sober this beautiful Christmas morning. Joy to the world! And my previous sentence only proves that I'm not, so yeah. Last night was fun, very noisy. My cousins lil gang reminds me of the Sexylicious, I miss you guys soooo much ya know?? Ish. Wish you guys were here.

Anyways after mass everybody flooded out of the compound and it was a cacophony of handshakes, hugs, kisses, and wishes of 'Merry Christmas!' and soon we didn't bother looking for people. Just hangged with 'da gang', you know, the loud one. It was fun and all la, but I feel so ostracised. You know, in a crowd where everybody knows each other and is basically related, you don't just fit in like voila! But it was cool, especially when Alex (cousin) picked up his guitar and we made a lot of noise with Christmas carols which I know less than half the words to. And the whole time my brain was like, 'If only they were here'; 'So like us'; 'Sigh'.

Then after that we went to some relatives house and made more noise. Haha! More singing, drinking, and the old men were smoking their cigaratte butts off.

The Declaration of Aileen.

Regardless of what I said before, I do get tipsy after 2 cans of Carlsberg.
Not drunk like, running around topless drunk, but slightly disorientated.
And if I do not talk crap, I feel sleepy.
I never tried a third can because of persuasive family members (some);
BUT... someday I will. =p

And yours truly has also discovered that...
Believe you me
When I get tipsy (I wanted to say drunk, but I've never been there yet =X)
I either...
1) Talk crap and am very happy (which is normal even without an alcohol level)
2) Knock off.

I did both last night/this morning. =]

Oh well gotta be off, will upload the pictures when I get home coz I didn't bring the cable. Going to naik motor with my FattyBoy cousin. Haha! Wish me a safe journey man! =X

Have yourself, a merry little christmas.... *sings*

dot dot dot

2007-12-23T19:23:00.000-08:00

Yours truly is now in Kedah and is blogging without BIG FAT COUSIN bugging me, coz he's at church. Or he might sit on me for using his computer and I might just sink into the floor. I'm in Kedah, and its so small town with not enough pollutants in the air. I'm so shocked, haha!

Oh and I just remembered that there was something I forgot about day 2 at camp. After our glorious Tug of War victory, something happened. Sheena screamed 'Leech!', and I saw this black thing on Tata, and I scream for the heck of it XD and then Tata said 'Where?' and someone said 'There!' and he screamed, and danced. After 5 seconds, he turned to Darren, said 'Actually not pain also...' and continued screaming and dancing. Fun =D

Okay I'm lazy to talk about camp now. It was good, with one very huge exception. I contemplate not returning, because he said he'd be back next year. And like I told Mr Man Boobs, I think I'll hire a boyfriend cum bodyguard throughout the entire time, simply because I do not have the guts to 'Kick his balls so that he'll remember it for the rest of his life,' as said by somebody. I hate him... =/

I need to pee...

Fatty!

2007-12-20T22:09:00.000-08:00

NEVER, EVER VOTE FOR TENGKU ADNAN. He is fat, fugly, wears thick glasses and is in need of braces and minty breath. On the last bit Qian Qian is asking, 'How dyou know he needs minty breath?' Well as he says such horrible, ugly, un-nice things... How could he not?

"Bloggers are liars. They use all sort of ways to cheat others. From what I know, out of 10 000 unemployed bloggers, 8 000 are women. Bloggers like to spread rumours, they don't like national unity. Today our country has achievements because we are tolerant and compromising. Otherwise we will have civil war.

"Malays will kill Chinese, Chinese will kill Malays, Indians will kill everybody else."

Tengku Adnan,

Tourism Munister (BN)

The fatty is the last one btw. Lets organise a riot! =D And get thrown into prison. My driving lecturer says that prisons are pretty now. Lets go see, eh? =P

Randomness

2007-12-20T21:19:00.000-08:00

I'm back! And I'm not sure if anyone is still willing to read about camp, so I'll put the unorthodox stuff here. =)

Day 1
Firstly, thanks to Keith's 'It will take a pretty long time to get to Terminal Putra so you'd better leave early', I and my brother was there the first. Idiot XD. But then all was well, and I was high so things were good and I love bus 2 so yeah. But then before we boarded I saw this man with a PCK-like mole, but it was a kazillion times worse because while PCK had ONE hair, he had... many. The whole thing looked like a furry parasite stuck to his face and I just had to laugh, and laugh... and laugh. I vaguely remember Vina and Melody trying to shush me, and Keith calling me evil, but still laughing himself.

And so I laughed my way on the bus. And was still happy happy with the Sexylicious at the back of the contraption until we realised; the rest of the bus was excruciatingly silent. And so began a series of plans made to wake everybody up, led by Nicholas. it nearly worked. Really XD.

Ooh, and I remember Keith only emo-ed once throughout the entire camp; which was on Day 1, so that was good =)

And the Dragons (my team) got a red flag. Yay! I (and perhaps Sheena), wanted to give a hot, steaming, sexy name worth of mention, but some people are so hemophobic (did I get it right Sheena? Did I?). Oh, and the Dragons argued a lot. A LOT. Take my word for it.

Day 2

Bamboo rafting! The lake so bloody pathetic. Its like, so stagnant, and murky; but not as bad as KKB. Dragons and Raging Rockets combined to create a super power powered by expert raft-makers. Haha! Okay I don't know what I'm saying. But my group won the tug of war! The basis of the game is actually quite primitive. Two rafts, facing away from each other, whose butts are connected by a length of rope with markers on em. And the kuli on each side just rows until one successfully pulls the other to a specific point.

White water rafting was good, but not exciting enough. Haha I didn't expect Sheena to do so well, grats girl! *hugs* And Jacky is such a bitch, but at that time I didn't know... When we were moving to the mother rapids, he put his arms around me, and at that time I didn't think much of it. And that will have to wait for another post. ><

* * *

I had three dreams in three nights, all a continuation from the next. The first two freaked me out to no end, but the third was okay, because I told you and you made me feel better.

Welcome home darling =)

2007-12-16T19:57:00.001-08:00

My internet is down, and something just happened that made my whole post delete. SO WAIT.

Or don't come back.

G'day ya'll =)

Ponder This

2007-12-02T03:00:00.001-08:00

I believe the creator of chain mail the Hitler of the internet, risen from oblivion to terrorize the lives of innocent internet users. Yet occasionally I would get an inspiring email out of hundreds of lousy ones, and I just have to share it. And still I refuse to be sucked into the chain mail plague.

And so my neurons worked out this brilliant, devious, masterplan...

Post it here!

Mwahahahahaha!!

Anyways, this is an explanation for all the emails I've been putting up =)

Its not plagarism! I edit, and whatever goes up is mostly void of typos aite?

* * *

And now that all is said and done, here's another one for you guys to digest. Imagine me shoving a dustbin lid sized thing of whatever befits your imagination. Naaaah!

Yellow = Personal favourites
Blue = Contradicting but still okay.

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
So true... Was discussing this with one of my cousins yesterday over the phone; he was on a personal mini-survey on what makes guys attractive. Well I told him, 'its everything, and nothing'. Go figure. haha

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
So where does the sex and marriage, and screaming kids go? XD

Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
Yeah! Personal favourite. =)

What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
No comment man. But this is brutal.

If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
There isn't enough love to go around. People don't/can't get enough of it. Duh.

Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.

You can only go as far as you push!

Actions speak louder than words.
Classic.

Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
I have no luck, thats why I don't have one.

Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Why can't everybody make the world special??

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
If they were your siblings they wouldn't be your best friend. You'd probably just end up fighting more than anything.

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
Refer to the above, above.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Cheese! =D

Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Ew, so wrong! But then... Its kind of true. Ish ><

Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until you make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until it's proven to you.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
T! he value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

From an Email

2007-11-29T19:09:00.000-08:00

Right now at this very minute-----------

someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you

someone
cares about you

someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided

someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right

someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes

someone
wants to give you a gift

someone
think you ARE a gift

someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you

someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts

someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you

someone
wants to protect you

someone
would do anything for you

someone
wants to be forgiven

someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

somebody
values your advice

someone
wants to tell you how much they care

someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms

someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms

someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of
you

someone
can't wait to see you

someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hears a song that reminds them of you

someone
wants you to know they are there for you

someone
is glad that you're their friend

someone
wants to be your friend

someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is wishing that you would notice them

someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you

someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you

someone
needs your support

someone
needs you to have faith in them

someone
needs you to let them be your friend

someone
will cry when they read this

Which one am I to you? Drop me a note, just curious.

After Lots of Animals... Finally

2007-11-29T17:31:00.000-08:00

Shopping/window shopping in Pavilion is both orgasmic and painful. Not unlike sex for the first time; not that I've experienced that, just read. The shops are so absolutely beautifully packed with drool-worthy outfits worthy of crying with joy, or pain. The joy part is pretty obvious, but pain? Pain I say, because simpletons such as myself could never afford it. And I shall not gush over them, whine, or ever so much as mention them at home in fear of my father overhearing; he has a compulsive habit to buy me everything, even if he later complains about it. An example? My iPod. Though the latter hasn't happened yet.

The moment captured. Including Hui Ning's lame look. XD

Anyways, the purpose of this expedition was to shop for Amirah's prom dress. You can just hear my eyes glinting. So anyway, I followed my mom to work, met up with Hui Ning at KLCC and we strolled around as the shops opened. Fooled around in Chameleon for a bit. I just love watching her tortured face as I display some horrid hairbands that have an exact, if not close resemblance to the Harajuku style.

Notice the little pink crown? What a princess wannabe. Haha!

Around that time, Amirah finally wakes up in pajamas and bullies Pak Wahid (Mr Driver) into fetching us to Pavilion. XD She going to contemplate my murder for this post anyway, so I've decided to push my luck.

Being there, I have to admit that it was the first time I walked into a high end label with a sense of purpose and direction. And ooh, there was this store which had the most jaw-dropping, head-spinning, chic, classy, glamourous sh*t heaven of a dressing room. I didn't get a picture coz Amirah-la... Walk out so fast. Buffoon. Pffft.

I'm surprised at the lack of SBU-ians there, save one. But we'll get there later.

Candid dressing room shot. She's quite convinced its the dress for her. She feels like a princess in it - so says she =). And it does complement her curves nicely. To Amirah : *nudge* Harris will lurve it! Unless you find something else later la, but he'll still love it, yes?

At Zara, we found the dress. Sure it looks like synthetic curtain on the hangar but with some prodding and pushing, Hui Ning and I managed to get her to try it so we could pick some stuff out too. ;) Ironically, we all tried the same dress, only Mira's was black and Hui Ning and I donned brown. But I lazy to snap coz I think it looks fugly on me.

Perasan-tedness! But she has curves to, my darling.

The most fun places were Topshop and Forever 21. I like lah, the skirts, the jacket... The stuff I tried on. Hope they have pasar malam imitations or something, I'm not picky =)

I'm the only teenager among the aunties. We made so much noise, I'm surprised they didn't throw us out.

Did I mention that Amirah walks into Forever 21, all hyper, says 'I'm definitely going to get something here', but later doesn't try anything, and broods over 3 pendants which she thinks she should buy after we leave the store. Did I also mention that she has about 300 moolah in her purse? Seriously, Amirah and Hui Ning are so fickle. But hey, its good to consider, reconsider, and re-reconsider too; especially if that pendant is priced at RM40+. What a double edged sword.

I want! I like! I love! Too bad short skirts are forever forbidden to me. *whines*

The dress Hui Ning says she'll wear when pregnant

Later embarked on a Starbucks hunting trip and bumped into Aiman on opposite escalators; we're going down, he's going up.

Amirah : Aiman!!
(Aiman turns)
Aiman : Hey! *raises hand*waves*
Muah : Hey Aiman! *jumps*
Aiman : *Continues waving* To Amirah: Hey!; To Hui ning: Hey!; To me: Eh didn't see you!

And so we conclude our journey with an absolutely sinful chocolate ice blended for Amirah and I, and hideous chilled coffee thing for Hui Ning. Poor girl, but I guess that happens. It overlooks the new cinema and we vow to our new gorgeous, overpriced, hangout.

The End.

Be Safe

2007-11-26T01:06:00.000-08:00

Edward is gone, he got adopted. And I was so hoping to see him today. Oh well, I hope he has a good home now... Probably being called Rocky again; the name given to him by the Indian lady who dumped him there.

There are so many things running through my mind right now, just imagine standing at the edge of a railway station on the yellow line, trying to catch the details in each window frame that passes. My thoughts are the people, the different details in each window I peer through. But with a gust of wind that sweeps my hair back, and momentarily blinds me, the train had its back turn toward me, getting smaller as it left the tracks of vision. And as the wind tickles my hair one last time, whispering some forgotten farewell, it was gone.

And there is nothing left to write. No story to tell, just a longing. I wish I had jumped on that train instead of watching the doors close between, afraid that you'd push me out. I wish I was brave enough to take the fall. But I'm not.

And you'll never know how much
I cried
I worry everytime you extend your leave in some far off place
I pray for you
I still choke on that stupid word, which I can't say, even here.
I need to tell you
Because I never will grow the balls to tell you.

It Stinked, And It Rocked

2007-11-22T04:00:00.000-08:00

The building was ancient and crumbling, the whole place stunk of a putrid odour, and there was sound pollution. It rocked =D. Did my first stint at SPCA as a volunteer today. It was as hard as I imagined, lots of hard work. But it was all worth it. Some dogs were vicious creatures not worth glancing at because they're evil and they bark. But you do grow attached to some.

Like Andy, he prefers cats to dogs but still he favoured a certain unchristined puppy. Unfortunately, it got adopted today. The family dumped one black puppy, and took that one. The look on his face was purely dumbfounded with a hint of anger and frustration. We suspect that that family had a litter too big for them to handle, so they gave two away. Now they came back with the third. And took another in its place! grr

I love Edward. He's 'my' dog now. =)

* * *

There was more to this post before this window kaput-ed on me yesterday, but to keep peace, I've decided not to retype this part.

Let sleeping dogs lie. Lol.

My two most favourite material objects in one masterpiece. *sigh*

Everything Tastes Like Puke

2007-11-19T02:27:00.000-08:00

My camera is back from the ER. So I shall celebrate with a grim event, as of below.

Pretty tablets, no? haha. After the first round I initially got sicker. But I suppose it could only get worse before it gets better. Currently moping around the house, doing nothing, eating just as much. Which, if you know me, is very, VERY rare for a food enthusiast such as myself.

Everything tastes like puke. And if Ken or Abi doesn't call me tonight I'll sue them. Ken especially. I hope to hear wonderful stories and rants about camp. =D

Fingerprints of God

2007-11-11T05:16:00.002-08:00

Take a look at these words. If you place the first letter at the end, and read it backwards... You still end up with the same word!

Banana

Dresser

Grammar

Potato

Revive

Uneven

Assess

* * *

I can see the tears filling your eyes
And I know where they're coming from
They're coming from a heart thats broken in two
By what you don't see

The person in the mirror
Doesn't look like the magazine
Oh but when I look at you its clear to me that

I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know its true
You're a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God

Never has there been and never again
Will there be another you
Fashioned by God's hand
And perfectly planned
To be just who you are
And what he's been creating
Since the first beat of your heart
Is a living breathing priceless work of art and

I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know its true
You're a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God

Just look at you
You're a wonder in the making
Oh and God's not through

No!
In fact hes just getting started and...

Fingerprints of God, Steven Curtis Chapman

A Baby at Home

2007-11-08T17:01:00.001-08:00

Eh, eh... I have something I wanna show you guys!

But before that...

I dreamt of Nick last night. You know, most dreams can't be remembered when you wake up. Trying to recall them is like trying to hold water in cupped hands while peeing. It spills, until there's nothing left to remember.

Well, this ain't one of them.

It was bedtime for some sort of school trip (to Australia, I presume, since Nick doesn't exist anywhere else XD). And for some particular reason, Andy was there. In reality I avoid going on extended trips with that boy like a plague. His 'I'm not happy with this' mood makes me want to slap him with a smelly tuna fish.

4 Alpha, illegal occupants, and Aussies

Anyway, we were um... Going to sleep. I think it was on the floor, with sleeping bags and all. (Hey, nobody said my dreams made much sense)
Well, he walked past me with one of his buddies and said
'Hey Aileen.'
Not much significance, except that I've never heard his voice before. And until then I was quite sure that my imagination wasn't quite as good as I liked it to be. Guess I was wrong.

Batu Seremban education XD. Over there I only really knew two people. The guy over there is Nick (no, not the one in my dream), and beside him is his girlfriend, Jess. Speaking of which, this Nick likes green tea o.O Like, crazy like.

I can't even remember the voices of some of the Sexylicious with such clarity. Ken being an exception because he calls me once in a while - to brag, and be bragged at. haha!

But the point being... I can't even recall the voices of my Malaysian friends who I speak to every so often. So how in the world did I fabricate something I've never heard... A continent away?! Makes no sense, nonsensical.

Ah, thats him. The guy to my right. Honestly, I didn't even notice him. =X

Don't get me wrong though, when the Australians came, I wasn't one of their crazed fans that all but drooled over them with puppy eyes. Jakoons they are. I figured they preferred to be treated like people instead of an exotic figurine. *sighs dramatically*

Just minutes before the Aussies visited the library. Can't remember why, but I was angry at something we were discussing, and was caught throwing something, somewhere. Huey Shan's shot. Haha

* * *

And now, finally, is the thing I wanted to show you guys!

Isn't this the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? Thy shalt shed tears of reverence and absolute joy upon this heavenly being. =P Admit it, it IS the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. And its mine, all mine!

Now I know what you're thinking, 'Shit, she must be so pampered damn it.' Well hear this, I've never had A mp3 player in my life! Until the fateful Tuesday on the year I turned 16. =D

Well, here are a few things to look out for.
1. The new cover flow is awesome and a delight to scroll. However, too many songs and some users complain of a slight lag in its fluidity. However, its nothing much.

2. The screen is slightly tilted. The left side is slightly lower than the right, but only if you look VERY closely. This is quite general too, and performance is not affected.

3. Don't operate the thing too fast. With more than 200 songs, there will be a slight hiccup to the interchanging interfaces. Lol. XD

4. Audiophiles will find the earphones that come with the nano inadequate. Personally, it sounds fine to me, but if you're into music quality, I suggest getting a new pair of earphones.

5. The earphone port and the connecting port on the nano is too close together. So the earphones have to be plugged out before inserting the connecting cable. Hopefully, it doesn't wear out.

Aside from all the above, the iPod Nano 3rd Gen is still a beauty to behold. And user friendly ;)

Oh, the 4 gig version is RM 613 (if I'm not mistaken) and only comes in white. I recommend the 8 gig one, which costs RM 829 and comes in black, white, blue, and green. Product(RED) needs to be specially ordered.

Thats all for now, I hope you enjoyed this insane rant, and awesome commentary today.

Cheers!

Sauna and Why Women Cry

2007-11-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

Anyone who has not been to a sauna should take some time off to try. I did, today. The experience is... uh, hot. I thought I stepped into a furnace. Visibility was terrible, and it was so hot I couldn't BREATHE. Luckily it was only my mom and I in there. The towel was glued to the bottom half of my face, supported by my hands. And I just stood in the middle of the confined space, feeling slightly claustrophobic, and looking (I bet) constipated.

Why Women Cry

A little boy asked his mother, 'Why are you crying?' 'Because I'm a woman,' she told him.

'I don't understand,' he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, 'And you never will.'

Later the little boy asked his father, 'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?'

'All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, 'God, why do women cry so easily?'

God said:

'When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry he! r husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.'

'You see my son,' said God, 'the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.'

Please send this to five beautiful women you know today. You will boost another woman's self-esteem! Send it to every man, so he can understand!

I Want To Retire

2007-11-01T05:51:00.000-07:00

Going to school for marks is the bottom most priority in my life now. Cause after exams, I'm no less busy. As always. These days I'm just filled with tension, so much to do, and when I do, it don't always go right.

I'm sick of shouting till my voice rasps but nobody LISTENS. And why in the first place, do I have to be the one to tell you guys what to do? If you see me bending down and cleaning, just help me. Even after a healthy dose of sarcasm which nobody seems to understand, you stand around, and then you walk away. I don't deserve this shit. After all the planning, just so YOU could have fun. Don't you know when to stop?! Never again, that game. NEVER. I went home and literally lay lifeless on my bed for a full hour without the will or strength to pull myself up. Not after all the running around I've been doing all day...

But I'm not one to hold long grudges or anger. So I woke up on the right side of the bed thinking 'Nah, maybe I won't shout at them today.' But you guys just had to ruin it for me again. Not one of you is going to the November camp. What kind of idiot will I look like, huh? So I just HAVE to mention one name.

Shukran. I was this *brings thumb and index together* close to actually hitting him with that thick newspaper stick that just happened to be there. Oh God, shouldn't have typed that, the itch to hit something (or someONE) is killing me. KYC-ers, you'd be mad too, if you had a bad day, and heard this :-

Ass : So, how much is it?
Me : 180
Ass : *gasp* so expensive...
Me : No la, its pretty cheap for 3 days 2 nights
Ass : Oh then.. Yerh, so cheapskate.

Okay it doesn't sound so impressive here. Probably the result of mounting resentment that was stored away in the corner for so long. Oh, my rebuttal was 'You'd better watch your mouth. One day, its gonna get you into trouble.'

And he'd better count his ball gods for my patience. I only blew after he left, but I bet they all heard it. It just happened, the stick was in my hand, which was about a meter and a half way, in a fraction of a second, it made contact with the counter. All in one swift movement. And it hit real hard. I forgot how strong I could be ><... Thank goodness there was only one witness, and she understands.

Unfortunately, thats part of the tension. But I guess my ranting is boring enough.

Amanda can't run no more! Some bone injury from over exercising... She could have run around the world - twice. Stay strong girl.

Oh Zen, I can't post it. It's in PDF form and it's super long. Sorry!

Oh, my camera rosak, so no pics, not for a pretty long time ><

Scroll Very Slowly On This Post

2007-10-27T07:33:00.000-07:00

Congratulations, and celebrations... *sings* Oh joy, no more exams! The weight of the past month has all but lifted completely. Still, no worries. No, thats not right, a worry-free life has its way of avoiding myself. So, the right term would be... Less worries. Haha

Alright, enough with the intro, here are the stories.

Last Exam Day (for me)

Taking the Art paper was definitely a pleasant surprise. Minus, of course, that I was the only non-Chinese speaker in that particular community. Talking was not forbidden, and the teacher just left us at our own accord. The practical part was not so surprising. I mean, how can one completely replicate someones drawing in 3 hours? Impossible, believe me.

Theory however, was strangely relaxing. They even waited for me before starting the paper, and I waltzed in, panting, 15 minutes late; naturally, fashionably, late. And was greeted by a handsome sight. Philip was attempting a catwalk on the table and nearly severed his head with the fan. But when it did start, the teacher came in with a student, went into the store room, came out and said 'Nanti kutip kertas dan letak sini *pats table* yea?' Then, she left.

At once the babble on the other table began. At mine, Ting En started.

'Eh, that one boy or girl ah?' She was referring to the student with the teacher.
And the debate between our table spread to include the next.

The talking never ceased after that, and yet nobody cheated. We are such good students. Those who finished, and couldn't bother checking just sat and chatted as usual. Philip, again, on the other hand, started singing, reeling off Disney songs and rending A Whole New World unrecognisable. Then came the Mandaring singing, which I laughed through anyway because he was doing Chinese opera, and was attempting voices of both genders. Quite amusing, really.

Black Eyed Peas Concert

Its today. Probably going on at this minute. Vi-Jean left early Friday, so she wasn't at school. Amirah left late Friday, and so she was at school. And later, an sms came from her.

Mira : Hey, you didn't tell me u were going to the bep concert
Muah : Huh? But I'm not going, unless you care to pay for me XD
Mira : Funny, vijean told me she saw u there.
Muah : Okay... i must have been spiritually present then. haha!
Mira : Oh muh bad. So see you there
Muah : I'm not going!
Mira : Alright, so I'll see you u soon then.
Muah : IM NOT GOING!
Mira : Oops, sorry!

And Huey Shan got free tickets. Screw it...

Parasites Are In Our Clothing!

Wash Bras and other clothing before use!

Most people do but this is just a warning for those that don't.....
Read the account first, then brace yourselves before looking at the
pics.............

WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT PARASITES ARE IN OUR CLOTHING
WHEN WE BUY THEM.

Wash your bra's before you wear them!!! Please make it a habit from this point forward to wash your just-purchased Undergarments before wearing them. This is sensitive.
After anthropologist Susan McKinley came back home from an expedition in
South America, she noticed a very strange rash on her left breast.
Nobody knew what it was and she quickly dismissed it believing that they would leave in time.

Upon her return she decided to see a doctor after she started developing intense pains. The doctor, not knowing the exact severity of the disease, gave her antibiotics and special creams. As time lapsed the pain did not subside and her left breast became more inflamed and started to bleed.

She decided to bandage her sores. However as Susan's pain grew more
intense she decided to seek help from a more certified doctor.
Dr. Lynch could not diagnose the infection and told Susan to seek the
aid of one of his colleagues who specializes in dermatology.

Unfortunately, the doctor was on vacation. She waited for two weeks and
finally was able to reach the dermatologist. Sadly, a life changing event was about to unfold during her appointment.

To Miss McKinley's surprise, after she removed the bandages, they found
larvae growing and squirming within the pores and sores of her breast.
Sometimes these wicked creatures would all together simultaneously move
around into different crevices. What she didn't know was that the holes were in fact, deeper than she had originally thought, for these larvae were feeding off the fat,
tissue, and even milk canals of her breast.

Warning!!! Potentially disturbing image ahead if you insist on scrolling down!

If you insist, I'm warning you. Seriously.

Alright, now that you're here... Scroll very, VERY slowly. Please.

Relief

2007-10-20T11:10:00.000-07:00

I am unhappy. But you know what does make me feel better? A look at all my Key Leader grams. They are a reminder of what I love to do, and simply because they make me feel good. For those of you who keep those little colour papers of joy, kudos man. But for some who just couldn't be bothered, too bad. I mean, even Andy hasn't thrown away his, and its no secret that he didn't really like the camp much. The sexylicious took away his favourite, albeit one and only, sister. ;)

Yeah, so I'll read them again, they bring me relief. And I'll go read the Bible again, thats even better. Although the Old Testament is rather depressing, but you gotta start somewhere... Now where have I heard this before? .... Oh. Nick. Right. heh

There is joy in giving.

Haha so random, but its true! And I can't seem to describe it with anything else.

Birthdays and Dreams

2007-10-19T20:56:00.002-07:00

Totally can't believe I managed to stay away for so long. My baby blog awaits food! - in the form of posts.

Alright, my sleeves are rolled up and I'm half awake. First things first.

Happy Belated Birthday Eric / Hiro Nakamura!

Happy Belated Birthday Kenalicious! I've yet to shop for your lingerie... =P

There, I hope thats it. After this I have to look forward to Pui Ying's birthday, Audrey's birthday and Nick's birthday. Though Nick will probably party out with his friends on that day. I will have tons of wishes to fulfil. And I solemnly swear to finally ice skate by this year. Somebody remind Aimee and Charlotte that they have a job to do XD.

On a deeper note, I've been dreaming again. Fortunately, its not the recurrence of the sad, violent once I used to have. Some are just plain weird, and don't make sense at all. But some just stand out against the rest. I think, and I hate to think this way, but maybe I'm worrying about something(s) unconsciously. Bella from the Twilight series dreams and solves her problems there. Why in the world am I so linked to that? I feel odd, a blue rose amongst the red.

Is there anybody like me out there?

Relapse

2007-10-15T10:35:00.000-07:00

So yeah, I went back to Taiping for a surprise visit. No big. They got a dalmation named Fiti and she's gorgeous. Wish I could have snapped a picture.

I started reading at 7.00pm today. I just finished. It was supposed to be a distraction, and at first it was - was immensely satisfying. But as it drew closer to the close, I had to concentrate on not throwing up.

I know its terrible for my life to hang imbalanced, as it is, on the pointed end of the blade. I was going to have to fall soon, whichever way, I don't know. No doubt it was a good story, but it didn't have a happy ending. Well, not happy for me.

I hate the way Mrs Meyers lines keep leaping out at me, throwing everything into sharp significance. It didn't help. The cotton candy in my brain was melting, and I need something to replace that. Fast.

There was something faintly disturbing in the plot, but I haven't quite caught on yet. Maybe my brain was turning into mush on me. Or maybe I just didnt want to know. OK, I'm scaring me. Haha

*sigh*. Eclipse was not as comforting as I'd hoped. In a way, it was more disturbing than New Moon. Jeez, now I feel unsatisfied and edgy. Ew.

"But my kind... We're easily distracted."

For those in the know, you could just laugh.

And I am truly sorry any of you had to bear this. Truly sorry.

Versatility & Prayers

2007-10-13T09:04:00.000-07:00

There are some timeless songs that will always inspire us, no matter how long ago we've heard it, nor how many times. They range from making you cry of sadness, to smiling with confidence. I find that they are also very versatile, and can be interpreted differently each time you listen, depending on the situation and of course, the listener. It could be going in and out of love, dreams that you have or had, the difficulties you've faced or simply to feel good about yourself. But the most facinating of all, is that I find they can also be used for personal worship. Yea, sounds strange doesn't it? But it works, to me at least.

May you trust God that you are
exactly where you are meant to be.

May you not forget the infinite possibilities
that are born of faith.

May you use those gifts that you have received,
and pass on the love that has been given to you.

May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul
the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

Because it is there
for each and every one of us.

Thanks Keith! This prayer goes back to you by the way, just not through e-mail.

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
I am a swift wind
Sweeping the country
I am a river
Down in the valley
I am a vision
And I can see clearly
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look them in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the worlds greatest

I am a giant
I am an eagle
I am a lion
Down in the jungle
I am a marching band
I am the people
I am a helping hand
And I am a hero
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look them in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the worlds greatest

In the ring of life I'll reign love
And the world will notice a king
When all is darkest, I'll shine a light
And use a success you'll find in me

I saw the light
At the end of a tunnel
Believe in the pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow
And faith was right there
To pull me through, yeah
Used to be locked doors
Now I can just walk on through
It's the greatest
I'm that star up in the sky

World's Greatest, R. Kelly

There's a hero If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Hero, Mariah Carey

I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a heros welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know every mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, Ill be right where I belong

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through

And I wont look back, I can go the distance
And Ill stay on track, no, I wont accept defeat
Its an uphill slope, but I wont lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its harms
I dont care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my heros welcome, waiting in your arms

Go The Distance, Michael Bolton

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray to the Lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I awake
I pray to the Lord my soul to take

Good night.

Tagged By Pui Ying

2007-10-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Photo tag. My first. But Pui Ying, damn susah la! Ish, this proves how much I love you -__-

1. The most recent photo of you.

When was this taken?
` The day of the tourism quiz, can't remember when. Pretty long ago though... haha

Who took it?
` Look and see.

Where was it taken?
` Unisex Shell toilet in Jinjang XD.

2. A picture of you making peace sign.

Is this picture in colour?
`Totally. It has an oh-so-surreal effect too.

Are your nails painted in the picture?
` I haven't painted my nails since I was eight and playing with my moms nail polish XD

3. A picture with your friend

Who were you with?
`Sheena Liam, at BRATs. We aren't really close, but hey, still a friend. Be honoured Sheena, be very honoured. haha!

4. A picture of you in a weird/random place.

Where were you?
` Chemistry lab, school. Well of all places to take a picture, I find the Chemistry lab a peculiar place. Btw, its not that dark really, my camera flash just sucks. And so does my hair, come to think of it.

Who took the picture?
` Well, either Ben, Ngee Ming, or Ying Si... Can't remember which =/

5. A picture of you in black and white.
DONT HAVE! mwahahahaha. And I'm lazy to edit. Boo

Did you edit this picture to black and white or did you take it like that?
' Refer to above.

Do you like black and white or color pictures better?
` Both. Sometimes black and white can convey the feeling and depth of the picture better than colours.

6. A picture of your hair up or spike up

Do you like your hair up?
` Both ways is okie dokie with me. But usually down when I go out, to make up for all the 'up' time my hair has done in school. Gosh, it sounds like jail doesn't it? =X

Is it in a ponytail, pigtails, etc.?
` Ponytail. But I sort of have a thing for French braids now, and I find that I can tie them in record time on myself. No comb needed ;)

7. Your weird face.

Is your face more funny or just straight up scary?
` Funny. I laughed so hard looking through that crazy camwhore moment, my maid looked at me like I was losing my mind. Maybe I have, haha!

8. A picture of you wearing black.

Added this for variety, since I'll be gone for a while after this. Specially for Amirah and Vi-Jean, if they ever come across this. So they can shout 'PORN!' all over again -_-. I actually had a better picture at the real event, but I LOST IT. dangdangdang *kicks self below the belt*

9. A picture of you wearing red.

At Shangri-La, Penang. Adore the washroom design! I so want to plan a triple family trip there this holiday with Amirah and Vi-Jean's family. But I know my dad will make it difficult. *sigh*

10. A picture of you wearing green.

Har Har, very funny. As if I don't wear green on every school day. Geez... Oh these are the Aussies who dropped by for a day. I don't get the obsession. Period. *sigh* jakoons.

11. A picture of you with your halloween costume.

This was taken early last year I think, I'm not sure. We look pretty young =/. So yeah, this is my Halloween costume. I can be scary when I want to you know! Oh c'mon, don't laugh man... I might not fight anymore, but that doesn't mean I can't! Well, OK, not really. gaaaah.

I just realised, my cousin isn't in. Aww... Haha, my perfect and sexy cousin. Sorry, haha, inside joke.

12. A picture of you with your mouth open.

Why is your mouth open?
` We were camwhoring! What other confirmation is needed?? haha

My Old Cousin

2007-10-11T05:43:00.000-07:00

It was so hilarious, I just had to blog it out.

So here I was, innocently chatting, when the doorbell sung. Naturally, Andy answered the door, and I heard conversation. But the other voice besides my brothers was not my dad, so I was curious. A little peek round the corner, and I just had to step up to the door frame.

He stared at me, and I stared back.

I broke the silence.

'What are you doing here?' the index of my finger pointing with shameless incredulity.
He smiled, something he rarely did in my presence, while fumbling with his phone. I repeated the question.

'I was looking for your dad.'

And I laughed my ass off. Out loud - at my 30 year-old cousin.

I was still laughing as he made his way down the stairs and into his Waja.

I'm Back

2007-10-10T02:55:00.000-07:00

So the exams are 'over'. Time to take a brief break before diving into more books for the objective papers after Raya. These two weeks have been hellish, people around me were breaking down because they expected too much of themselves. Or maybe, like me, they just need the grades to get out of whatever hole they're living in.

It baffles me how some people can cry during the papers. Don't get me wrong, I'm not getting a mean streak or anything, but there's so little time, and so much to do. The least possible best thing to do would be to try to understand nonsensical words with opaque vision and emotional distress.

And after, I'm so effing tired, I can't cry. If I go to Gamma next year, I'll jump of the fourth floor of the school building. So NOT after all the effing effort I put into this exam. Or maybe I do deserve to be punished for not studying hard enough, heck.

On the other hand, the Raya holidays are here!

Scream HALLELUJAH! =D

Come join me in my exhausted ecstasy. Everybody's welcome. hahaha

You like? I like. But this is in the 'rejected' pile. Eh Keith? =P

You're still my friend. Always.

Black Friday

2007-10-05T03:38:00.000-07:00

I.am.angry.

And when I say it, I mean it...

I'm very, very upset.

I cry when I get really pissed, not because I'm sad.

I'm leaving.

I want to retire...

3 Steps To Recognise A Stroke

2007-10-04T02:45:00.000-07:00


Remember the "3" steps, STR . Read and Learn!

Sometimes symptoms of a stroke are difficult to identify. Unfortunately, the lack of
awareness spells disaster. The stroke victim may suffer severebrain damage when
people nearby fail to recognize the symptoms of a stroke.

Now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking three simple questions:

S * Ask the individual to SMILE.
T * Ask the person to TALK and SPEAK A SIMPLE SENTENCE(Coherently) ( I.e. It is sunny
   out today)
R * Ask him or her to RAISE BOTH ARMS.

NOTE: Another 'sign' of a stroke is this: Ask the person to 'stick' out his tongue.
If the tongue is 'crooked', if it goes to one side or the other, that is also an
indication of a stroke.If he or she has trouble with ANY ONE of these tasks, call 999
immediately
and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher.

Aileenicious says : From 1st October 2007, 999 is the new nationwide emergency
hotline for everything. Just in case you didn't know. Its under the slogan 'Satu
Negara, Satu Nombor'.

BM Rock My World

2007-10-03T04:16:00.000-07:00

It has got to be one of the highlights of my life which is tagged with 'Exams'.

Halfway through KOMSAS question : *stretches*, locates ache in neck, bends head upwards, *crack*. Ouch.
Take that, times four. And do that through a two and a half hour basis without leaving your seat.

Same thing, different version : Turns to look at Ying Si on my left, *crack*. wth?

Novel : Anda dikehendaki menjawab kesemua soalan (a, and b). Its OK, I have time, the exam finishes at 1.50pm. Now its 1.00pm and I'm nearly finishing up the (a) part. No worries.

'Sekarang tinggal lima minit lagi, sila semak semua jawapan dan nama kamu.' It was 1.05pm.
In head, 'What the fish? Apa itu ikan?'
I look up and what do I see? Exam till 1.10pm, staring at me. How can they change without notifying us? Apa itu ikan man...

Best part : I totaly halt my answering of section a, flip the page, and start listing down the pengajaran in POINT FORM. As such...

1. Kita haruslah...
2. Kita hendaklah...
3. Kita patut...
4.
5.
6.

Then I flip back to section a, and finish of the last sentence. Then...

Teacher stole my paper by force. -_-"

Kertas ujian BM telah merosakkan mood saya. Ekoran itu, saya telah mengalami gangguan emosi lalu terpaksa mengatasinya dengan mengacau Amirah yang juga sedang kebingungan. Akibatnya, dia juga panik.

Sekian, saya yang menjalankan tugas.

Under Construction

2007-10-01T04:28:00.001-07:00

OK I'm formatting my blog so things might get a little crazy here before its actually fit for viewing. Recently tried the new templates and as witnessed, I'm no better at it than with HTML codes.

On the plus side, I can sort of Photoshop now, so thats a bonus.

On the minus side, I'd rather not talk about it but...

"THATS IT?!" Just a thought...

Passing the Baton

2007-09-28T02:34:00.000-07:00

What do you do when the person who makes you happy also makes you sad? I liked it better in the earlier years, when it used to be so easy, so light.

Remember the time I had a rebelious streak? Well after that I promised I wouldn't hurt you anymore. And in that sense I succeeded. But what for? If I failed in every other thing.

You were always just there. You never had the answers to everything, but you always made me feel better. Sometimes I can't thank you enough, and I hope you know that.

I guess I've had to lean on you so long that I find it hard to try not to. Its not easy, but I think I can do it. Can you?

For once, lets make it about what you want.
So why don't you call the shots this time?
State the conditions of the agreement and I'll sign, whatever it is.
I promise.

It Hurts to Read The Papers

2007-09-27T01:13:00.000-07:00

It hurts to read the papers nowadays.

It really does.

I can't even find the right fancy words to describe it.

Honestly, I don't even bother trying.

We can only grieve for those who fought the battles but lost

We can only pray for the tortured souls

We can only curse those who cause pain (and enjoy it)

And hope for a new tomorrow.

After the Exam...

2007-09-24T13:07:00.000-07:00

After the exams I will / can :

1. Go ice skating to celebrate PY's birthday and go to that new steak house Charlotte and Hui Ning are so crazy about XD.

2. Celebrate Audrey's birthday at 1U. + Get the sexylicious ppl to come out too.
+ And we can make a team to play paintball! Julian, you're so dead =P, go find a team. Fast!
+ Sri KL ppl? I dunno man.. Yee Yan might kill me if I don't
drop any hints -.-"

3. Do library stockchecking *gasp*!

4. Redesign the library layout. =D

5. Attend the 10th Kiwanis Youth Camp! If my parents say no, the sexylicious gang is in charge of executing my secret flight at midnight the night before OK? XD But I really really wanna go! grrr

6. Head over to Alor Setar to celebrate Christmas and do carolling! Since Alex has been begging me to come for 2 years =/ Sorry cuz, my dad weih. And the fact that I can barely strum a guitar

7. Catch the latest movies

8. Tweak my blog so it'll be prettier =D

9. Go to church =/ Yeah, and who's gonna take me? gaaaaah

10. Work

My Horoscope

2007-09-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

From Amirah's email :

PISCES - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable.
Intelligent.
Loves to joke.
Very Good sense of humor.
Energetic.
Predict future.
GREAT kisser.
Always get what they want.
Attractive.
Easy going.
Loves being in long relationship.
Talkative.
Romantic.
Caring.
4 years of bad luck if you do not repost. (the potong stim part XD)

I Worship This

2007-09-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

This piece is so good, its better than a backless flowing Chanel dress with subtle swirl motifs embroidered with Starkovsky diamonds of various sizes. You know what, thats not a bad idea... I'll get Philip to design one for me. haha. This is from Pui Ying's blog and by all means, view it in its full splendour at her blog. I've got her linked right here ;)

Enjoy!

Dear seafood girls, (read - Dear lala girls)

I must say, you have very unique ways of wearing your clothes. They look so ah-dorable as though they are bought from the Rubbishdump shop. Or perhaps, bits and pieces of clothes sewn together to form an ultimate piece of shirt. Ahh, not forgetting, you people who dress like that must work as a clown or a joker in the future for I, once, saw one of your species actually wore different colour of shoes and socks for both legs and couldn't stop myself laughing for the 10 whole minutes. There, you have your career planned ahead of you. :)

Anyhoos, in friendster or I bet even myspace, it seems that your community has already expanded too fast. So, how do you guys actually spread your love for this trend on the Net? Perhaps, someday, you can teach me so that I can spread another trend which has got nothing to do with your trend. By the way, you guys have a million people of friends and my amount of friends compared to yours in friendster or myspace is nothing. And what's more, mostly are guys. You must have had magnets to attract them.

And those kawaii pictures of you people, It's soooo cute, with all kinda different poses which vary from 1 finger to 10 fingers. Creative humans, you are. Oh, and you have really good photography skills. Taking pictures of your own from very nice angles which will make your eyes look bigger than usual. Now, although I have naturally big eyes, I would really love to learn that art of photography from one of you one day.

Speaking of creativity, every single one of you seem to have your own special words. For instance, EuU instead of you and mIi instead of me. Are any of you planning to publish a dictionary someday? It might do some good to the people around the world you know so that they know those words from your dictionary can't be used in examinations. Besides, lending a helping hand will not damage your already-oh-so-wow profile.

Finally, your committee is totally the most well-behaved people. Being so extra friendly to the male species especially. You see, I envy you people who get 80 testimonials a day and 90% of them are from the guy friends of you people. While mine, is just too much of a sad case. Now, if only I can be as sociable to guys as you people, I may not have only ONE account in friendster till now.

All these praises come from the bottom of my heart, nights. :)

*sigh*, beautiful.

Tagged By Julian

2007-09-19T12:54:00.000-07:00

Who sleeps at 6pm, wakes up at 3am, and does a pointless tag at 4am? Guess who? haha

Seven things to be done before my death.
1. Get a boyfriend
2. Get baptised
3. Do charity
4. Master at least 2 instruments and faintly knowledgable of 2 more
5. Get a DSLR
6. Be a backpacker kind of traveler
7. Touch lives...

Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.
1. Let my relationship with God die down
2. Break contacts with my parents or siblings
3. Die alone. Well technically it won't kill me coz I'll already be dead? =/
4. Commit adultery or premarital sex
5. Cheat in an exam
6. Do suicide. Its stupid, and I'm too chicken anyway
7. Diet. No discipline haha

Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1. Shower
2. Take a shower and sing
3. Pee and defeacate
4. Play dress-up prior to an outing
5. Cry (Accidental occurences and camps don't count =] )
6. Fume excessively
7. uh....?

Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1. Lame ass!
2. Don't be mean
3. Oh my goodness
4. Stupiat!
5. Screw you!
6. Names that contains 'i' in the last syllable. Contoh : Pui Yiiiiing, Hui Niiiing, Edwiiiiiiiin (my favs =3)
7. Poke!

Seven favourite songs from all time
1. If Everyone Cared, Nickelback
2. Goodnight My Angel, Billy Joel
3. My Wish, Rascal Flatts
4. Move To The Other Side Of The Block, The Rocket Summer
5. So Much Love, The Rocket Summer
6. Happy Ending, Mika
7. I Believe, Yolanda

Worth mention : To Zanarkand (Piano), FFX

Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1. Take away my computer
2. Cause me bodily harm
3. Tell me what I can or can't do
4. Steal from me
5. Hurt my loved ones and friends
6. Treat me like I'm mentally incapable
7. Hurt my treasured books. (I'll stuff you into the locker)

Seven people to tag.
1. Pui Ying
2. Huey Shan
3. Keith
4. Ken Lam
5. Vina
6. Sheena
7. Zunny

Passion
or Responsibility?

Ah what a rhetorical question, because we all know the answer.

Tactically, its perfect. But that doesn't mean it should hurt less.

My Interpretation, Mika

You talk about life, you talk about death,
And everything in between,
Like it's nothing, and the words are easy.
You talk about me, and you talk about you,
And everything I do,
Like it's something, that needs repeating.
I don't need an alibi or for you to realize,
The things we left unsaid,
Are only taking space up in our heads.
Make it my fault, win the game
Point the finger, place the blame
It does me up and down,
It doesn't matter now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

The first two weeks turn into ten,
I hold my breath and wonder when it'll happen,
Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true,
And half of what I didn't do could be different,
Would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know.
Would we have somewhere to go?
The only way is down, I can see that now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

It's really not such a sacrifice

If I ever talk to you again
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

And it don't have to make no sense to you at all,
'Cause this is my interpretation

Rapists and How To Prevent Them

2007-09-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

Subject: Through a rapist's eyes .... Ladies... Please Read!! A repeat but if reading this again helps us to remember even a few of these things it could really make a difference. A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts: 1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair . Women with short hair are not common targets. 2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing. 3) They also look for women on their cell phone , searching through their purse, or doing other activities while walking because they are off-guard and can be easily overpowered. 4) Men are most likely to attack & rape in the early morning, between 5:00a.m. and 8:30a.m. 5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked is grocery store parking lots . Number two: is office parking lots/garages. Number three: is public restrooms. 6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to another location where they don't have to worry about getting caught. 7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years. 8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming. 9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas , or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands. Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it. 10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question , like what time is it, or make general small talk: "I can't believe it is so cold out here," "we're in for a bad winter." Now you've seen their face and could identify them in a line-up; you lose appeal as a target. 11) If someone is coming toward you , hold out your hands in front of you and yell STOP or STAY BACK ! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back . Again, they are looking for an EASY target. 12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes) , yell I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent. 13) If someone grabs you , you can't beat them with strength but you can by outsmarting them If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm (between the elbow and armpit) OR in the upper inner thigh VERY VERY HARD . One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands - the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it - it hurts. 14) After the initial hit, always GO for the GROIN . I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble and He's out of there. 15) When the guy puts his hands up to you , grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly. 16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings , take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts!!! you may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble. 17) Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do! 18) Learned this from a tourist guide in New Orleans . If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM . Toss it away from you....chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION! 19) If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won't see you, but everybody else will. This has saved lives. 20) Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.) DON'T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR, LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE. 21) If someone is in the car with a gun to your head DO NOT DRIVE OFF, repeat: DO NOT DRIVE OFF! Instead gun the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car. Your Air Bag will save you. If the person is in the back seat they will get the worst of it. As soon as the car crashes bail out andrun. It is better than having them find your body in a remote location. 22) A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot or parking garage: A.) Be aware: Look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. B.) If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars. C.) Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.) 23) ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot. This is especially true at NIGHT!) 24) If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times. And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, preferably in a zigzag pattern. 25) As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP! It may get you raped or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well-educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked "for help" into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim. 26) Another Safety Point: Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last, and she called the police because it was late and she thought it was weird. The police told her "Whatever you do, DO NOT open the door. "The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over. The policeman said, "We already have a unit on the way, whatever you do, DO NOT open the door." He told her that they think a serial killer has a baby's cry recorded and uses it to coax women out of their homes thinking that someone dropped off a baby. He said they have not verified it , but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby's cries outside their doors when they're home alone at night. Please pass this on and DO NOT open the door for a crying baby ---- This should be taken seriously because the Crying Baby theory was mentioned on America's Most Wanted this past Saturday when they profiled the serial killer in Louisiana. I'd like you to forward this to all the women you know. It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it on.Note : Got this as an email from Amirah and Hui Ning. Thanks girls, luv yas! So here it is as a public service message. Hey, even guys get sexually harrassed alright? =P

2007-09-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

The unclenching of the fist.

Snippets of the Recent Past

2007-09-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

Wonder what its like to have the past flash by so quickly they fade before you blink. Well wonder no more. In the midst of exam period, beautiful things still happen.

SMK Seri Bintang Utara Merdeka Celebrations.

Feasting of the F3's hard work

Oh the colours, the food, the excitement! The annual 'dress-up time' for the young adult, the young at heart.

Oooo

The speeches nearly rocked the school to slumberland, and the formalities were a little off the top.

Attention!

But the ending has always been a much-anticipated event. With adrenaline and hormones surging at near maximum level, patriotic songs were literally screamed out.

4 Alpha's performance. Which ended dismally. Stupid camera flash, why didn't you WORK?!

We should video our little group next year too, WITHOUT sabotaging the camera with flags this time.

Kiwanis Central Key Leader - Sri Kuala Lumpur

The surreal rise of dawn

There is no glory in reaching out. Yet there is no greater pleasure in doing so.

Candid! =) Nini and Keith

Reminds me again why I joined the Unit Bimbingan Sekolah, the seniors who've inspired and invoked this nature in me.

Posing with a pretty orange Merc. Just don't scrutinize the legs. -.-"

Reminds me that I am qualified to be their President. Reminded me of how good it felt to touch someones life, and never expect any gratitude in return.

Just had to take this. Inspirational, ya know.

It demanded for me to let lose. Go wild. Live life now. For there is no greater time than the present. =D

Vinalicious and Aileenicious!

I remembered that many people love me, and always will. I just hope they know I love them too.

SF's rock!!

The SF's were just awesome, we click like super glue coupled with jelly beans and sugar. I just wish we could join the participants more sometimes... Oh well.

Dear Philippe... He's only thirteen! Just proves how short i am. Bleeh

Most memorable neighbourhood moment : The raft tilting a full 90 degrees. And as we were attempting to aid the tilting so the raft would produce the end product of being upside down, there came a squek 'Help!' And so trapped in the planks above our heads, was a girl, Mun Ching, hanging on for dear life! No one was injured in the process. Hahahaha!

I dig hot Malay guys. Well, temporarily. haha!

Classroom Randomness

When I said 'Have fun with my camera', I certainly did not mean take a million pictures of me sleeping in class!

Huey Shan, WHAT in the pollution-filled world are you doing??

Hui Ning, you're and equally bad photographer. =P

Ngee Ming the Sleeping King. All hail!

Ed Board Farewell

I got to eat at Renaissance for FREE. Did you? XD

The food was beautiful. The desert table taking about half the space of the entire buffet spread. Heaven!

The Kick in the Bowels Soup that gives Amirah the umph to life. Haha!

The reaction is as such. Whoooo!

Hotels are the perfect photo opportunity. They're SO aesthetically designed, I can't help running around snapping pictures while squelling in pig-like delight. XD

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After this, its back to studying *ahem* for me. Ho ho I got number 13 in class for my assessment!! Mwahahaha

This Head Banging

2007-09-09T00:18:00.001-07:00

I've so given up on blogging about Genting... There's just too much to put in! And I bet everyone's bored anyways, so I guess I'll zip it up.

Currently some construction going on overhead (I live in an apartment btw) and the nagging drills are just killing me! Its like being skewered in the head with a blunt knife. Failing so, the assailant throws an anvil straight between the eyes. The latter would be the headache which ensues after trying to concentrate on a full two page EST essay. Lucky me...

Blogging about camp soon! Rejoice~!

I bet KEITH hasn't blogged about camp either. BOO.

Genting 2

2007-09-07T03:23:00.000-07:00

Mommy took this. Man I look hot at this angle XD.
'Self praise is true praise!.' - Pui YingComments, anybody? Coz I have none.Go Andy GO! Archery at Awana : Stiff competition between champs Aileen and Andy.
But Aileen always wins! - Even after the brutal second round. Despite the terrible posture XDLoser gets to be the target, Ratatouille style. I guess I've lost my beginners luck. But if you look real close, there's one between his legs. Haha!
At the restaurant, tons of people came about bugging us, showing off their wares, collecting 'funds', and such. One even had the nerve to tempt my youngest brother with a toy! Disgusting.. No wonder the restaurant was empty! This particular one stayed for a drink. And what can I say? I have itchy fingers, just HAD to snap a shot =P
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5 MINUTES TO TUITION!!!! BYE!

Genting part one

2007-09-04T03:42:00.001-07:00

I'm so lazy to post, I'll just give you guys a pictorial report. XD

While waiting to be registered, this ol fella here opened a humongo packet of peanuts and started eating them. Handfuls of calory-filled peanuts entered his mouth at a time. He dropped a few by accident, and picked them up! Goodness...

Spot the typo?? =p

Lunch! I think thats a little too big eh? Notice the wristband... Merdeka!

Hush Puppy slippers for uncle! They're so funkeh, no?

Poser giler man my aunt! Bet she likes the necklace and new bag. ;)

I think the high altitude makes my maid a lil depressed. Whoo candidness.

Genting Skyway view in the evening. Nice shot, courtesy of muah. haha!

Isn't this just gross? Taken outside a lamb restaurant at Genting/Highlands Hotel... Can't remember which.

This clown is cute! Buat bodoh in the lift man.
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I know this sounds so wrong, but I'm now studying Physics with Julian and Jeff on msn, so I'll cut it short for now kay? Its fun, everyone should do it. Hahaha!

2007-08-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

I guess Genting pictures will have to wait. I'm so elated at going to camp tomorrow, but I am so tired. And some people just have to use my depression to bring them condolences and strength, I have no idea why. I cannot fathom why some people are so twisted. I'm glad I'm going, aren't you happy for me?

Currently feeling pretty insecure, though I'm not sure why. I can guess, but never pin-point the exact target thats causing all this. So I've decided that its just me. That I am causing all this brew of emotions I cannot understand. I know no one can and will help me to figure this out. Its life, you get used to the fact that it all brews down to you. Even God won't help those who don't help themselves.

You can never know how hard it is to keep myself together. I hope to be happy all the time, and be the way I used to be. But perhaps things do change, and like the sands scattered by the dessert wind I may never be the same person, but still I am the same person. Whatever change may be, I hope I changed for the better. I'd like to think of it that way...

Lets just hope I fix me in time. Before my smiles become fake and I get high just to get out of reality. I hope so...

oh what fun

2007-08-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

I'm in Genting blogging! Oh what fun. Met Kevin here, wow, coincidences do happen! Nice piano friend, good boy, with his hair done like a gentleman in the fifties - side parted and gelled. Plus, he tucks in his shirt and wears a belt, and hasn't even done his Grade 8 in pianoforte. So.... I beat him!! Hah! Still, he is very talented =/

Heading down to Awana tomorrow to see if I can cause any havoc. Went down there today to check it out through the Genting Skyway. Nothing much really, and we came across this Hungry Ghost Festival performance. For the spirits, you know. There was a chinese opera and puppet show. Got a picture of the latter. The setting was awfully creepy, chilly to the bone - and not because of the altitude either. The seats were all empty, and all along the darkening pathway beside a deserted road there were small flags with chinese writing on it. Some had the occasional pao next to it, and when the wind blew they fluttered eerily. Burnt money was scattered all over the floor, all damp due to the recent rain. Andy stepped on a few by accident and I made him say sorry. Hey, I'm a person of God, but he ain't.

Oh. And I somehow managed to pop my right knee by accident. It was so bad I marched, or rather, limped right down to Watsons and got myself a knee brace. Still hurts insanely though. Yet all being said and done, I am still determined to do some jungle trekking at Awana, and other extreme sports that my just get me killed or permanently decapacitated. Oh well.

This is my inaugural utilization of an internet cafe - I hope I used the context right =/. Believe it or not. Haha! Man do I miss my computer, no matter how slow the connection, or however sucky it is sometimes. I have a hacker who has been trying to get past my antivirus for a while now. He has the port number 1494. I say 'he' because about 90% of hackers are guys, so there.

Wait for the pictures yeah! ;)

heading off

2007-08-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

I'm a heading off to Genting tomorrow! Can't wait! Hahaha. I hope to do some jungle trekking, coz I'm such a unique thing. =p

Got a call and an email from KH Wan today, regarding next weeks camp. I am quite certain that my parents will stay adamant at a -NO! So... there it goes I guess. Still, I'll wait, hope and see how it goes. But if my parents say YES... KEN, GRAB YOU'RE BAGS... COZ WE'RE FACI-ING BABY! =D
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Let's face it, I can't, and won't change you. It's what makes you you. For better or for worse.
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It's OK, It's always been. Always will be.
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I'm OK. Always been. Always will be.

Man, I'm OK! Just need to beef up a bit eh, I'd hate to get depressed when Malaysia is turning 50. haha! I want to go to Putrajaya to celebrate, but my dad is totally against crowds. Ish.

Turn Up The Volume, Mute The Sounds

2007-08-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

Last time I talked to you, I looked down on you, lost in space. Without thinking words were said, and what hurtful words they were. And suddenly sarcasm didn’t seem like such a cool thing to have anymore. I never saw the hurt in the dark depths of those eyes flanked by the wrinkles that made you beautiful.

You’re falling back from me, defy gravity, out of reach. But somewhere out there, I’ll find you again. Out here the atmosphere is dense, and I turn on the radio, trying to find you on some line. Tuning into the emotions that plague the air I breathe. I pray that you don’t burn out, or fade away.

I never saw the redness in the whites of your eyes as you spoke to me about the sacrifices that you made, the dreams that you shed tears for. Perhaps I didn’t want to. So I plastered a smile and said ‘Thank you, mom’. But I didn’t think you heard me.

So loud were the beats pulsating through the headphones. Sufficient enough to drown out the noises I didn’t want to hear. It would be me, and the turmoil that could only be in my head. Every note has a meaning, yet it depends solely on the listener to carve out the intricate message behind the words, the rhythm of the drums, the rhapsody between the guitar and its base, the back up music, the inflection of the vocals, all woven in sync and symphony.

And if I don’t make it, know that I loved you all along. Just like sunny days that we ignored, because I was dumb and jaded. And I hope to God I’d figure out what was wrong. I walked around my room, thinking, and sinking in this box. Blaming myself for being so much like somebody else. So now I’ll just be me. I will walk through that door and kiss you, and whisper the things I hoped you’d like to hear.

But before that, the volume goes up a notch, the sounds get muted and I’m drowning in my own emotions as my body seeps the cold from the white marble floor. The same songs replay over and over again, as if the hand of God was handling my Windows Media Player, which was set on to shuffle and repeat.

You’re falling back to me, the star that I can see. I know you’re out there, somewhere out there… I know, I know… And so as the song ends, I throw away the headphones and step to face the only being I wanted to see at the moment with grim determination.

How many times you wished you were strong, have they ever seen your heart? Have they ever seen your pain? Oh life is waiting for you, its all messed up but we’re alive. Oh life is waiting for you, its all messed up, but we’ll survive. I know you will, because I know that beating heart that lies within you so well.

You were lying in bed, not crying – thankfully. I crept up slowly like I used to in the years bygone, and put my arms around you. I kissed your face and whispered in your ear ‘I’m sorry’. Then, I left. The door swung shut on its hinges, the deed was done. Once again I reached for the headphones, turned up the volume, and all sounds were muted.

First creative piece in a long while, hope I haven't gone rusty on inspiration.

tagged

2007-08-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

Make 30 sentences that start with the letter "I"

I like chocolates.
I love Jesus.
I finally finished reading Deunometry (and I don't think I know how to spell it). haha
I have no idea why I'm doing this.
I think I'm bored.
I wonder why no one is talking to me right now.
I will nudge a number of people on my msn list soon.
I have ice cream in my fridge.
I love my gerbils.
I need Streamyx or some faster connection than what I have now.
I want an iPod nano.
I feel content with my obsolete phone.
I want to learn how to hack.
I need to upgrade my anti-virus license soon.
I need to get Eclipse fast. FAST!
I hate having headaches.
I think I'm going to die soon. whoops.
I want to let everybody know how important they are, but I don't think they're listening.
I love my mom and dad.
I feel sorry that I said something that hurt my mom just now.
I gotta go tell her that soon after this.
I hate going to school on a holiday.
I hate having nothing to do.
I have to do my homework.
I don't think I have much to say now.
I will stop at 27. sorry.

Tags... whoever who wishes to do this.

UBS FAREWELL PARTY

2007-08-18T08:16:00.000-07:00

Cheerleading comes in useful, especially to turn on the air conditioning XD

Fly Huey Shan FLY!

There is just so much that needs to be said, but no words to say it. I tried, but I don't think I managed to convey all I wanted to. I was nervous, I stumbled... But I didn't fall. Because their claps and smiles held me up. And that, is the beauty of my family.

So this is my speech, rephased :

You have made us proud. Thank you for being in our lives and making a difference in us. I would really hate to see ya'll go. This unit just wouldn't be the same without you guys. You made me realise just how little time I have left to make a difference, to fully enjoy my time here... Because the days are a'countin.

Thanks Jeff, for being my first friend in the unit, and for being the best (and only really) pet brother anyone could ask for. You are sometimes weird, but you're a genius, and your ass is damn small XD. Oh, your clown act, will haunt me for the rest of my living days. *shivers*

Ebbe, did you know that I have always looked up to you? I've always wanted to be like you. But I guess I can never do that, so I guess just be me.

Steph, good luck with Nicholas - you guys have always looked good together even through your public fights. haha! Nicholas, I will remember the day you put make up on at Gopeng ;)

Yoegi, you are black but you've always been Lil Miss Sunshine. Keep that up girl, you rock!

Chung Khei, you're always with that other girl, but I forgot her name =X. Did you know that the two of you look like sisters? Thanks for all the whispering during meetings... - and getting scolded for it.

May Chong, you have sacrificed a lot for us. 150%, remember? *hugs*

I said I couldn't cause I scene, but as I retreated to the side with the rest, I cried anyway. It was excrutiatingly embarrassing. Its those moments when you wish you could disappear into nothingness because everybody in the room is watching, whispering. I hid my face with the camera, and invisible people stroked me. I heard Huey Shan, I heard Thiban saying 'Aileen... Don't cry', Vi-Jean, Shaun indicating that I had a shoulder to cry on - which I didn't. The hardest thing to do, was to stop. Because once it started, it just went on, and on, and on...

But after that, I was all cool. Seriously, it was a blast and I could have not asked for more. Especially dressing them up :D

Thats my old cheer costume Emirah!

Muru barely fits into my cheer costume this year. Man you look hot.

But Ebbe has boobs so he looks hotter.

Nice Egyptian touch. Haha!

Jeff. is wearing. my. scarf. and a tube. - with boobs.

Psst... when I took the Form 5's outside, Ebbe's girlfriend was outside. *cough*hack*cough*

Amirah's Birthday

2007-08-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

12th August - We celebrated Mira's birthday at Prego, The Westin KL. Full story ahead!

Friday, 11 August - Surprise party for Amirah. So sorry I couldn't make it fully, I had UBS stuff to do, you know, being president and all XD. Paiseh. haha

But I wasn't spared from the cake and cream splattering. Thanks you AMIRAH and JIAN HONG. Especially Jian Hong, who locked me in his Judo grasp while Kee Thai smothers my face. Great atmosphere, even Puan Shiamala was not spared. Family friend weih!

Awi couldn't get the cream out of his layer of carpet hair, and ended up stuffing his head into the sink directly under the violent tap, mandi style. haha!

And I'm sorry I scolded Hui Ning on that day =( I know I didn't shout or anything, and was rather nice sounding, she was right.. I can be really scary. Gasp.

Went home and collapsed into a drunken stupor. A hard rocking woke me.

'Eh, tuition weih!' and that, would be Andy the Incredibly Evil.

Then, with timing to bag an Oscar, the phone rings. This girl drags off to fulfil the unspoken rule - The nearest person to the phone is obliged to answer.

Speaker : Hello, may I speak to Aileen please?
Me : Yea
Speaker : Is this Aileen?
Me : Yea
Speaker : Oh hello Aileen, this is Aunty Nina... Amirah's mother.
Me : OH, Hi Aunty! *oh SHIT. omg omg omg.... darn it*
Speaker : Well I am organising a surprise party for Amirah, and I was wondering if you would like to come along.
Me : Oh, I'll have to ask my parents first.
Speaker : Yes, and its this Sunday, at an Italian restaurant, Prego... At the Westin Hotel. It starts and 8 and you can tell your mother to pick you up at 10.
Me : Ok... I'll have to ask my parents.
Speaker : OK, so sms me the answer alright? And don't tell Amirah, because it is a surprise.

Curse my excessive melatonin production -.-"

At Prego - What can I say? It was dim, chic, and the food was excellent! Absolutely tongue-tingling delight. But I should remember not to order Arrabiatta again. It was sooooo spicy, I was getting the flu. So I exchanged with Hui Ning =D

Let the pictures speak for themselves...

There were so many colourful stars on the table. And so pretty too! haha.. See how its all bright and shiny?

Poor lil Iskandar fell asleep.. So Arman and Amran decided to bury him in balloons. Aww look, he forgot to finish his cake... Poor soul

Amirah dives into her food.

Amran's got braces! Red hot Amran, you're such a big boy now =D

We rock........
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The next day was Physics paper. I guess that needn't be elaborated, haha! Talk about going out during exam period...

Next post will be the UBS FAREWELL PARTY! I love my family =3

Tomorrow

2007-08-16T02:29:00.000-07:00

The old and the new

Tomorrow. Love it or hate it.

Hate it because Puan Lee set the Chemistry paper tomorrow.

Love it because we're partyyyiiing after school!

Hate it because we're celebrating the beginning of the end for the seniors.

Love it because it'd be crazy.

Hate it because I might cry.

Love it because I love them.

Hate it because I have a five minute speech to fill.

Love it because its something I worked hard for.

Hate it because it'll potentially go messy. And you can kiss this hot ass goodbye.

Love it because I hope to whacked Ebbe's ass till he has to stand for the rest of his trials.

Hate it because I might get whacked back. XD

Love it because ITS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. I can practically smell the sweet holiday air in the breeze...

can't live with em, can't them without em

2007-08-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

Been wanting to blog this for quite a while. Call us retards... Its OK. It all happened, on a beautiful autumn day of Wednesday. 4 Sc Alpha begged Puan Sareah not to have PJ. She agreed, and so, it all happened in the classroom.

Aileen walks in class. Everyone stands up, just ready to greet the teacher.
Huey Shan give Aileen a look.

AL : What are you lookin at?
HS : No, what are you lookin at?
AL : You were giving me that look...
HS : No, you were giving me that look!
AL : You were, you stupid girl
HS : Stop looking at me!
AL : No... You stop looking at me!

*nudge* Psst, Pn Sareah is STARING at you two!

HS : *lowers voice* You stop looking at me... okay?
AL : *does the same* No, you stop looking at me looking at you looking at me!

Puan Sareah mutters inaudibly, something about 'lawan dalam kelas' XD

AL : Stop looking la you perve.
HS : *laughs ass off*
AL : O.o

amusing

2007-08-07T01:24:00.001-07:00

A little something I ripped off Lindley's blog. Hahaha, read on.

Looks like something Huey Shan would do.... XD Yeah, she's rather queer, and retarded, so thats good. And I'm not saying that just because she sits behind me in class and has every opportunity to kick, poke, and annoy me shall I condemn her here. Amen.

2007-08-05T10:50:00.000-07:00

I actually came here intending to rant and curse beyond recognition, but I guess I don't feel so angry anymore. The Lord does wonders... Didn't feel so good on Saturday, but I'm OK now, surprisingly.

Sometimes its hard, not knowing whether to forgive, or not. Some things are not so simple... I guess I'll just sit here in this little stagnant corner and see what Jesus has in store for me, and pray. Because I believe... Simply.

Now, I post in peace... No cursing, promise.

I didn't want to go, I can't believe I'm saying this... But I think I'm traumatised. I was made to go, but not forced : behind the tears there is a will of steel, and if I truly didn't want to go, I wouldn't. I'd run away till it was over.

I can't believe you think I'm crying for you.

I'm so glad you're back. The road to ...... is never easy.
Yeah, not with you here.
You're like a daughter to me.
Never in a million years, I only have one father, and if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have wanted to see your grotesque physique ever again.
Realise your mistakes...
I didn't need you to realise them for me.

I can't believe I let you hug me, and let myself touch you. You stink, and I feel tainted with your evil.

OK, now go.
Gladly.

In two hours, I never smiled, not even to my comrades - more like, acquintances really. 'Cept a certain friend, whom I know understands very well my pain. You're still an asshole though =P. Nor with the kids either, their great. Still love me. Haha

You asked me thrice if you would see me next week. It sounded like an order, and I was sorry I had to nod in silent obligement. I should never have gone back, then you'd know how its like to lose valuable talent such as myself. I'd gladly switch loyalties than to stick with you.

I can't wait to get outta this dump. Hell is a place called home - Previous thoughts, I can never keep it up. Sigh, but sometimes I feel so unappreciated. I'm the best kid they got and... Sigh. Sorry folks, if this sounds awefully conceited. Only, I try so hard to make them proud, sometimes, you wonder if it was worth it.

'Sabar, now is not the time to rebel. Its time to suck your parents money and enjoy life. After that... do whatever you want - and feed yourself, of course'

There's only one person who reads my blog who knows what I'm talking about. If the certain person is aware enough, of course.

Week old product of kung fu conditioning. Don't worry, I ain't no damage inducing, self inflicting person. I love myself too much XD

OK, I don't know how to get rid of this... the real deal is below. Its an old song of theirs, but hey, still good.

PLANET SHAKERS lyrics

2007-08-03T09:17:00.000-07:00

I was zombiefied today, due to the lack of sleep. Felt like liquified faeces.

Then I was totally off the hook, laughing to myself from the loo to class. After school, I was still laughing to myself, so hard, I had to stop halfway on the stairs a few times. When depressed, laugh; and laugh hard.

Then I slept and missed two calls. What luck.

Forgot I had tuition till my mom called and asked me to get my ass down.

I concentrated.

I'm strangely happy today, and I know perfectly why. That worries me =/

Whooo going to the gym tomorrow morning with me mommy! - Today, actually, haha. I'd better... Indulging in Dominos Twisty Bread is sure to pack on the pounds. Rawr!

LMAO! I feel weird today

wheee

Congratulations to me on my weirdestest post ever. HAHAHAHAHA

Night

FAQ

2007-07-31T01:29:00.000-07:00

Why does Aileen always emo here?
No doubt this is spurred by Ms Jessica-Chestnut, but I'm going to just say it ANYWAY... Because, my blog is my refuge, it was never created as a public entertainment place. So I don't blog to please the public (most of the time anyway, haha!), but rather to release emotional and mental stress or tension that threatens to engulf me in its depressing arms.

OMG, has Aileen turned into a poor depressed soul?
Well, no. Usually, I'm a very happy and hyperactive and just refuse to shut up. Also, I'm annoying and extremely weird. But there are just some things that can't be expressed see? So here it all goes. So don't worry... Aileen is still here =D

Well, thats all for now, I'm blogging from my tuition center and class is about to start, ciao!

Mungkinkah saya perlu mula blog dengan menggunakan Bahasa Melayu? Kerana saya ingin meningkatkan prestasi penulisan saya... Mungkinlah...