Passing the Baton

What do you do when the person who makes you happy also makes you sad? I liked it better in the earlier years, when it used to be so easy, so light.

Remember the time I had a rebelious streak? Well after that I promised I wouldn't hurt you anymore. And in that sense I succeeded. But what for? If I failed in every other thing.

You were always just there. You never had the answers to everything, but you always made me feel better. Sometimes I can't thank you enough, and I hope you know that.

I guess I've had to lean on you so long that I find it hard to try not to. Its not easy, but I think I can do it. Can you?



For once, lets make it about what you want.
So why don't you call the shots this time?
State the conditions of the agreement and I'll sign, whatever it is.
I promise.

It Hurts to Read The Papers

It hurts to read the papers nowadays.

It really does.

I can't even find the right fancy words to describe it.

Honestly, I don't even bother trying.




We can only grieve for those who fought the battles but lost

We can only pray for the tortured souls

We can only curse those who cause pain (and enjoy it)

And hope for a new tomorrow.

After the Exam...

After the exams I will / can :

1. Go ice skating to celebrate PY's birthday and go to that new steak house Charlotte and Hui Ning are so crazy about XD.

2. Celebrate Audrey's birthday at 1U. + Get the sexylicious ppl to come out too.
+ And we can make a team to play paintball! Julian, you're so dead =P, go find a team. Fast!
+ Sri KL ppl? I dunno man.. Yee Yan might kill me if I don't
drop any hints -.-"

3. Do library stockchecking *gasp*!

4. Redesign the library layout. =D

5. Attend the 10th Kiwanis Youth Camp! If my parents say no, the sexylicious gang is in charge of executing my secret flight at midnight the night before OK? XD But I really really wanna go! grrr

6. Head over to Alor Setar to celebrate Christmas and do carolling! Since Alex has been begging me to come for 2 years =/ Sorry cuz, my dad weih. And the fact that I can barely strum a guitar

7. Catch the latest movies

8. Tweak my blog so it'll be prettier =D

9. Go to church =/ Yeah, and who's gonna take me? gaaaaah

10. Work

My Horoscope

From Amirah's email :

PISCES - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable.
Intelligent.
Loves to joke.
Very Good sense of humor.
Energetic.
Predict future.
GREAT kisser.
Always get what they want.
Attractive.
Easy going.
Loves being in long relationship.
Talkative.
Romantic.
Caring.
4 years of bad luck if you do not repost. (the potong stim part XD)

I Worship This

This piece is so good, its better than a backless flowing Chanel dress with subtle swirl motifs embroidered with Starkovsky diamonds of various sizes. You know what, thats not a bad idea... I'll get Philip to design one for me. haha. This is from Pui Ying's blog and by all means, view it in its full splendour at her blog. I've got her linked right here ;)

Enjoy!


Dear seafood girls, (read - Dear lala girls)

I must say, you have very unique ways of wearing your clothes. They look so ah-dorable as though they are bought from the Rubbishdump shop. Or perhaps, bits and pieces of clothes sewn together to form an ultimate piece of shirt. Ahh, not forgetting, you people who dress like that must work as a clown or a joker in the future for I, once, saw one of your species actually wore different colour of shoes and socks for both legs and couldn't stop myself laughing for the 10 whole minutes. There, you have your career planned ahead of you. :)

Anyhoos, in friendster or I bet even myspace, it seems that your community has already expanded too fast. So, how do you guys actually spread your love for this trend on the Net? Perhaps, someday, you can teach me so that I can spread another trend which has got nothing to do with your trend. By the way, you guys have a million people of friends and my amount of friends compared to yours in friendster or myspace is nothing. And what's more, mostly are guys. You must have had magnets to attract them.

And those kawaii pictures of you people, It's soooo cute, with all kinda different poses which vary from 1 finger to 10 fingers. Creative humans, you are. Oh, and you have really good photography skills. Taking pictures of your own from very nice angles which will make your eyes look bigger than usual. Now, although I have naturally big eyes, I would really love to learn that art of photography from one of you one day.

Speaking of creativity, every single one of you seem to have your own special words. For instance, EuU instead of you and mIi instead of me. Are any of you planning to publish a dictionary someday? It might do some good to the people around the world you know so that they know those words from your dictionary can't be used in examinations. Besides, lending a helping hand will not damage your already-oh-so-wow profile.

Finally, your committee is totally the most well-behaved people. Being so extra friendly to the male species especially. You see, I envy you people who get 80 testimonials a day and 90% of them are from the guy friends of you people. While mine, is just too much of a sad case. Now, if only I can be as sociable to guys as you people, I may not have only ONE account in friendster till now.

All these praises come from the bottom of my heart, nights. :)



*sigh*, beautiful.

Tagged By Julian

Who sleeps at 6pm, wakes up at 3am, and does a pointless tag at 4am? Guess who? haha

Seven things to be done before my death.
1. Get a boyfriend
2. Get baptised
3. Do charity
4. Master at least 2 instruments and faintly knowledgable of 2 more
5. Get a DSLR
6. Be a backpacker kind of traveler
7. Touch lives...

Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.
1. Let my relationship with God die down
2. Break contacts with my parents or siblings
3. Die alone. Well technically it won't kill me coz I'll already be dead? =/
4. Commit adultery or premarital sex
5. Cheat in an exam
6. Do suicide. Its stupid, and I'm too chicken anyway
7. Diet. No discipline haha

Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1. Shower
2. Take a shower and sing
3. Pee and defeacate
4. Play dress-up prior to an outing
5. Cry (Accidental occurences and camps don't count =] )
6. Fume excessively
7. uh....?

Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1. Lame ass!
2. Don't be mean
3. Oh my goodness
4. Stupiat!
5. Screw you!
6. Names that contains 'i' in the last syllable. Contoh : Pui Yiiiiing, Hui Niiiing, Edwiiiiiiiin (my favs =3)
7. Poke!

Seven favourite songs from all time
1. If Everyone Cared, Nickelback
2. Goodnight My Angel, Billy Joel
3. My Wish, Rascal Flatts
4. Move To The Other Side Of The Block, The Rocket Summer
5. So Much Love, The Rocket Summer
6. Happy Ending, Mika
7. I Believe, Yolanda

Worth mention : To Zanarkand (Piano), FFX

Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1. Take away my computer
2. Cause me bodily harm
3. Tell me what I can or can't do
4. Steal from me
5. Hurt my loved ones and friends
6. Treat me like I'm mentally incapable
7. Hurt my treasured books. (I'll stuff you into the locker)

Seven people to tag.
1. Pui Ying
2. Huey Shan
3. Keith
4. Ken Lam
5. Vina
6. Sheena
7. Zunny

Passion
or Responsibility?

Ah what a rhetorical question, because we all know the answer.

Tactically, its perfect. But that doesn't mean it should hurt less.



My Interpretation, Mika

You talk about life, you talk about death,
And everything in between,
Like it's nothing, and the words are easy.
You talk about me, and you talk about you,
And everything I do,
Like it's something, that needs repeating.
I don't need an alibi or for you to realize,
The things we left unsaid,
Are only taking space up in our heads.
Make it my fault, win the game
Point the finger, place the blame
It does me up and down,
It doesn't matter now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

The first two weeks turn into ten,
I hold my breath and wonder when it'll happen,
Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true,
And half of what I didn't do could be different,
Would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know.
Would we have somewhere to go?
The only way is down, I can see that now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

It's really not such a sacrifice

If I ever talk to you again
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

And it don't have to make no sense to you at all,
'Cause this is my interpretation

Rapists and How To Prevent Them

Subject: Through a rapist's eyes .... Ladies... Please Read!!

A repeat but if reading this again helps us to remember even a few of these things it could really make a difference.

A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:


1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair . Women with short hair are not common targets.


2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing.


3) They also look for women on their cell phone , searching through their purse, or doing other activities while walking because they are off-guard and can be easily overpowered.


4) Men are most likely to attack & rape in the early morning, between 5:00a.m. and 8:30a.m.


5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked is grocery store parking lots . Number two: is office parking lots/garages. Number three: is public restrooms.


6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to another location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.


7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years.


8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only
takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.


9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas , or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.


10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question , like what time is it, or make general small talk: "I can't believe it is so cold out here," "we're in for a bad winter." Now you've seen their face and could identify them in a line-up; you lose appeal as a target.


11) If someone is coming toward you , hold out your hands in front of you and yell STOP or STAY BACK ! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back . Again, they are looking for an EASY target.


12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes) , yell I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.


13) If someone grabs you , you can't beat them with strength but you can by outsmarting them If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm (between the elbow and armpit) OR in the
upper inner thigh VERY VERY HARD .

One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands - the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it - it hurts.


14) After the initial hit, always GO for the GROIN . I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble and He's out of there.


15) When the guy puts his hands up to you , grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.


16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings , take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts!!! you may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.


17) Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do!


18) Learned this from a tourist guide in New Orleans . If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM . Toss it away from you....chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!


19) If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won't see you, but everybody else will. This has saved lives.


20) Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.) DON'T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR, LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE.


21) If someone is in the car with a gun to your head DO NOT DRIVE OFF, repeat: DO NOT DRIVE OFF! Instead gun the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car. Your Air Bag will save you. If the person is in the back seat they will get the worst of it. As soon as the car crashes bail out andrun. It is better than having them find your body in a remote location.


22) A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot or parking garage:

A.) Be aware: Look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat.

B.) If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.

C.) Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)


23) ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot. This is especially true at NIGHT!)


24) If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times. And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, preferably in a zigzag pattern.

25) As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP! It may get you raped or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well-educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked "for help" into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.


26) Another Safety Point: Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last, and she called the police because it was late and she thought it was weird. The police told her "Whatever you do, DO NOT open the door. "The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over. The policeman said, "We already have a unit on the way, whatever you do, DO NOT open the door." He told her that they think a serial killer has a baby's cry recorded and uses it to coax women out of their homes thinking that someone dropped off a baby. He said they have not verified it , but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby's cries outside their doors when they're home alone at night. Please pass this on and DO NOT open the door for a crying baby ---- This should be taken seriously because the Crying Baby theory was mentioned on America's Most Wanted this past Saturday when they profiled the serial killer in Louisiana.


I'd like you to forward this to all the women you know. It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it on.

Note : Got this as an email from Amirah and Hui Ning. Thanks girls, luv yas! So here it is as a public service message. Hey, even guys get sexually harrassed alright? =P

The unclenching of the fist.

Snippets of the Recent Past

Wonder what its like to have the past flash by so quickly they fade before you blink. Well wonder no more. In the midst of exam period, beautiful things still happen.

SMK Seri Bintang Utara Merdeka Celebrations.

Feasting of the F3's hard work

Oh the colours, the food, the excitement! The annual 'dress-up time' for the young adult, the young at heart.

Oooo

The speeches nearly rocked the school to slumberland, and the formalities were a little off the top.

Attention!

But the ending has always been a much-anticipated event. With adrenaline and hormones surging at near maximum level, patriotic songs were literally screamed out.

4 Alpha's performance. Which ended dismally. Stupid camera flash, why didn't you WORK?!

We should video our little group next year too, WITHOUT sabotaging the camera with flags this time.



Kiwanis Central Key Leader - Sri Kuala Lumpur

The surreal rise of dawn

There is no glory in reaching out. Yet there is no greater pleasure in doing so.

Candid! =) Nini and Keith

Reminds me again why I joined the Unit Bimbingan Sekolah, the seniors who've inspired and invoked this nature in me.

Posing with a pretty orange Merc. Just don't scrutinize the legs. -.-"

Reminds me that I am qualified to be their President. Reminded me of how good it felt to touch someones life, and never expect any gratitude in return.

Just had to take this. Inspirational, ya know.

It demanded for me to let lose. Go wild. Live life now. For there is no greater time than the present. =D

Vinalicious and Aileenicious!

I remembered that many people love me, and always will. I just hope they know I love them too.

SF's rock!!

The SF's were just awesome, we click like super glue coupled with jelly beans and sugar. I just wish we could join the participants more sometimes... Oh well.

Dear Philippe... He's only thirteen! Just proves how short i am. Bleeh

Most memorable neighbourhood moment : The raft tilting a full 90 degrees. And as we were attempting to aid the tilting so the raft would produce the end product of being upside down, there came a squek 'Help!' And so trapped in the planks above our heads, was a girl, Mun Ching, hanging on for dear life! No one was injured in the process. Hahahaha!

I dig hot Malay guys. Well, temporarily. haha!

Classroom Randomness

When I said 'Have fun with my camera', I certainly did not mean take a million pictures of me sleeping in class!


Huey Shan, WHAT in the pollution-filled world are you doing??


Hui Ning, you're and equally bad photographer. =P

Ngee Ming the Sleeping King. All hail!



Ed Board Farewell

I got to eat at Renaissance for FREE. Did you? XD


The food was beautiful. The desert table taking about half the space of the entire buffet spread. Heaven!



The Kick in the Bowels Soup that gives Amirah the umph to life. Haha!



The reaction is as such. Whoooo!

Hotels are the perfect photo opportunity. They're SO aesthetically designed, I can't help running around snapping pictures while squelling in pig-like delight. XD

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After this, its back to studying *ahem* for me. Ho ho I got number 13 in class for my assessment!! Mwahahaha

This Head Banging

I've so given up on blogging about Genting... There's just too much to put in! And I bet everyone's bored anyways, so I guess I'll zip it up.

Currently some construction going on overhead (I live in an apartment btw) and the nagging drills are just killing me! Its like being skewered in the head with a blunt knife. Failing so, the assailant throws an anvil straight between the eyes. The latter would be the headache which ensues after trying to concentrate on a full two page EST essay. Lucky me...

Blogging about camp soon! Rejoice~!

I bet KEITH hasn't blogged about camp either. BOO.

Genting 2

Mommy took this. Man I look hot at this angle XD.
'Self praise is true praise!.' - Pui YingComments, anybody? Coz I have none.Go Andy GO! Archery at Awana : Stiff competition between champs Aileen and Andy.
But Aileen always wins! - Even after the brutal second round. Despite the terrible posture XDLoser gets to be the target, Ratatouille style. I guess I've lost my beginners luck. But if you look real close, there's one between his legs. Haha!
At the restaurant, tons of people came about bugging us, showing off their wares, collecting 'funds', and such. One even had the nerve to tempt my youngest brother with a toy! Disgusting.. No wonder the restaurant was empty! This particular one stayed for a drink. And what can I say? I have itchy fingers, just HAD to snap a shot =P
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5 MINUTES TO TUITION!!!! BYE!

Genting part one

I'm so lazy to post, I'll just give you guys a pictorial report. XD



While waiting to be registered, this ol fella here opened a humongo packet of peanuts and started eating them. Handfuls of calory-filled peanuts entered his mouth at a time. He dropped a few by accident, and picked them up! Goodness...







Spot the typo?? =p





Lunch! I think thats a little too big eh? Notice the wristband... Merdeka!




Hush Puppy slippers for uncle! They're so funkeh, no?




Poser giler man my aunt! Bet she likes the necklace and new bag. ;)




I think the high altitude makes my maid a lil depressed. Whoo candidness.




Genting Skyway view in the evening. Nice shot, courtesy of muah. haha!

Isn't this just gross? Taken outside a lamb restaurant at Genting/Highlands Hotel... Can't remember which.








This clown is cute! Buat bodoh in the lift man.
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I know this sounds so wrong, but I'm now studying Physics with Julian and Jeff on msn, so I'll cut it short for now kay? Its fun, everyone should do it. Hahaha!