No way

I don't know about the rest, but I'll never get used to being known. Not famous, - I refuse to think of it that way - just, known by the lower forms. Some whom I haven't or never will, have the pleasure of knowing. Perhaps fame doesn't agree much with me. Part of me feels glad to be known, but the other part feels awkward and clumsy. I'm nearly out of school and it still never fails to shock me. The kind of surprise that makes you blink a couple of times, thinking, 'huh?'
And indeed with all daily musings, something happened that triggered it.

As I finally emerged into the sunlight at the school gate, a junior confided in me, 'Aileen, I can't believe I'm not in...' while successfully holding me prisoner by the sleeve.

'In what?'

'I wasn't shortlisted for the UBS interview!' I promised her I'd get her in, she was such an enthusiastic thing. Plus, I sort of asked her to join, so there were clouds on either side of the plain.

As we walked out, a retardo malay girl showed her IC at us and made a funny face. Neither of us knew her. So when two her friends gasped, pointed, and beckoned her, I didn't know what to make of it. My first thought was, 'more retards'.

'You know them?' I asked.

'Yeah, they're my friends. Hehe, they're excited.'

'About what?'

'Seeing the UBS dude. Um, dudette, you know.' If she wasn't eyeing me very obviously, I would have gone, 'huh'?

And yes, I did blink a few times. I'm sorry for being such a slow thing sometimes.

Which to bury, us or the hatchet?

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget

and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you

and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happenedand one day we'll see this come around)

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...


Relient K

Half-a-foot out the door

Half-a-foot out the door,

we're almost out of high school.

Aww man, are we leaving already? No fair, I haven't climbed through windows yet XD

musings...

Famous

Have I...

Won medals? Check

Made time for friends? Check

Studied hard? Um, half-check

Played hard? Check

Been kind to juniors? well, mostly lah.

Played in a band? Check

Done drama? Check

Held high posts? Check

Become somebody? Checkcheckcheck =D

Infamous

Have I?

Skipped class? Check

Gotten a BSL? Check

Skipped school? Check

Brought illegal items? Check

Played a prank on anyone? Check

Been on the roof? Check

The flamingo wears pink XD

With Awi

With Chang and Kuan Yee

Thank ye' Interact Club for ze flower. My rose tis bootiful...

coz Hakim picks nice roses for pretty girls. Compared to Chang's... sad one. XD

5 Sc Beta, with some animals from another zoo.

11 years babeh! xoxo

The birdwatcher tak pandai ambik gambar! Haha, Happy Happy Happy Belated-est Birthday YVonne!

You deserve binoculars yo!

I'm only a girl, after all

I'm graduating from high school tomorrow and I.don't.know.what.to.wear.!

Why have Hui Ning and I switched roles? I'm usually the calm one, its the like movie Freaky Friday I tell you.

Whatwhatwhat...........?

And Yee Vonne, Ms Belated Birthday girl, you are SO coming to Pavilion to celebrate YOUR birthday, and GeniusBash can WAIT. okie dokie? Oh, and your presents not done yet. Come to school on Monday =D

What to wear what to wear what to wear...?

One-eyebrow thick! EyePod razr??